A brand new year means a brand new beginning..... As the year of 2004 draws to a close, it also puts an end to another roller-coaster ride.... Before one has time to rest, another roller-coaster ride is about to begin... Much expectations for the new year to come, much things needed to be done..... Yet this entry isn't about what is to come but a tribute to the ups and downs of the year 2004.....

Ups: Well, its natural that people tend to remember the more unfortunate things rather than the happy things which is very true to a certain extent..... But some happy memories stick with people for life.... One such scenario was the chinese new year when the councilors came over to my house to visit.... We had lots of fun and laughter and the one thing i could never forget was the prank which all you bad guys pulled on me.... The banluck affair.... How could you guys trick me.... Heeeheheheh.... Well for the fun of it huh.... Another up would be the two council bbqs we had.... One in school after the funfair and the other when the londoners were back... Bbqs with the councilors always made me happy since it always brought back the good old memories with them......

Downs: First one or rather complaint would be the lousy, eventless and boring birthday i had this year...... Next would be my F-ed up camp and my f-ed up campmates.... Lastly would be my mixed up and bottled up feelings for her....... Sigh........ Its good not to talk too much about the bad stuff isn't it??? If not you can't stop talking........

A toast to all these memories in 2004, though gone but not forgotten..... 2005 arrives shortly and a brave new world to come.... SMU (and lots and lots of cute and beautiful babes) here I COME!!!!!!!

My Golden Rules:
1. "Never be affected by comments that doesn't matter to u.... What matters is what people around who care say...."

2. "Understand clearly this thing that is making you angry... U will know how it is making u angry and most importantly, u will understand that it cannot make u angry unless u allow it to... "

3. "Know thy self better..."

New Year Resolutions of the Year:

1. Adhere to the golden rules

2. Lose more weight

3. Remain close with friends around me.

4. Pass that DAMN driving test

5. Aim for double degree

6. Get a galfriend.... MUAHAHAHAH that one's a JOKE


Anymore to add my dear friends??

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

WHY KAYU DRIVERS CAN DRIVE ON THE ROAD????

WHY ASSHOLES CAN DRIVE ON THE ROAD??????

WHY PEOPLE WITH A LOUSY ATTITUDE CAN PASS???

WHY PEOPLE WHO TAKE PRIVATE MUST FAIL?????

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

LIFE's NOT FAIR

I'M IN A LOUSY MOOD...... NEED TO VENT SOME FRUSTRATIONS............ GRRRRR

SUMMARY OF MY TEST SCORES:

4 points for failure to confirm safety
2 points for delay in moving off
2 points for insufficient acceleration
2 points for insufficient acceleration
8 points for not enough side clearance given to other road users
2 points for failure to use appropriate gear
8 points for causing other vehicles to slow down or take evasive action
2 points for incorrect positioning
2 points for incorrect positioning
2 points for wide turn
2 points for wide turn
2 points for sharp turn
4 points for incorrect lane
2 points for late braking
2 points for late braking
Immediate Failure- Failure to stop at the stop sign

NO MAJOR MISTAKES BUT ALL CRAPPY MISTAKES.... SHITTYY..... Worst of all, some of the above mentioned mistakes are not even commited at all...... Simple example: Stop sign, I step the brake, the car stops and then i see there's no car, I move off........ FOOKER.... XYZ@#@!~)#!@#!@#........ Don't feel like doin things now sianzz.... To make me feel worse, my junior in camp whom i hate very very very much passed........FUCK!!!! A FUCKER LIKE DAT CAN PASS?!?!?!? ARRRGGGHHH....... There's no justice.......... F F F F F F F F F F..........

Tales sitting on the taxi:
Its pretty AMAZING to sit on a cab and listen to the stories the old but wise and sometimes gossipy man has to say...... In fact, I'm pretty interested in compiling a collection of interesting rides on the cab.

Ride No.1 :
This happened on my way from Pasir Ris to Parkway..... I hopped on to a TRANSTAXI cab (the red one) and was listening about the news reports on the radio. Hearing all those homeless souls made me give out a sigh which sparked off an interesting conversation with the taxi driver. He seemed pretty sympathetic to the victims of the tsunamis and keep telling me how poor thing these victims were.... Then he when on to talk about the relief aid sent over. He was pretty sceptical about how much of help we sent would actually reach the victims due to the fact that the corrupted officals would have probably kept a certain amounts for their personal use. To him, he seemed to condemn the Western countries, clearly complaining about how silent the countries kept and how little help they gave to the affected countries of the earthquake. Furthermore, he claimed that " BIG BROTHERS" of the west always liked to sit and reap the benefits while we asians slogged hard......... The whole conversation went on and on sounds pretty boring rite??? Well.... Maybe i Ain't a good narator....

Ride No.2:
This happened when i took a cab from Parkway back home... By now you guys must be thinking wat the F?!?!?! How come I so rich rite??? Anyway I hopped on a comfort cab.... The driver started talking out of the blue from the moment I got on the cab... He was complaining wat a bad day he was having, with all the lousy passengers he had been getting. He was telling me about the chinese nationals he had picked up accused him of going a huge round when the truth was that it was a one way street.... Then he went on to condemn those chinese nationals... I then went on to talk about my lousy day to him which ended up in him talking about the government.... According to him, the government keeps cheatin us of our money... For example, the recent Singapore Idol targeted the young and unknowing youths who voted furiously for their favourite idols.. According to him, from it alone the government earned several million dollars from it.... Next, he talked about how "CHIOW" the government was during the elections stating a clear example of the booking of election headquarters or speaker corners during the election times..... Apparently, he had fetched Ch**m See T**g's fellow people before and he was saying that during the elections they had to book speakers corners. So it happened that this fella was first in the queue wanted this particular spot. But it was booked which made no sense coz it was the first day and he was first in queue so how could it have been booked?!?! He went on to inquire who had booked the spot which was needless to say lah.......... Then he went on to talk about interests which he clearly CONDEMNED......

FIN

Tales about the Grenadier:

Piles I tell you are one of the worst things to contract!! The agony!! The pain!! The constipation of bowels!! Before it gets any worse, I tell you it simply feels HORRIBLE!!! Luckily I only have one lah so it isn't that bad teehehehehhe.... But the visit to the MO a.k.a. the doctor's is like taking a walk along ELM's street....

Re-enactment:

Doctor: So you have piles?
Me: Yes.....
Doctor: How long has it been? Do you have blood on your stools or it is discharged with your stools?
Me: Four to five days.... I'm not so sure....
Doctor: Okay I'll have to insert a probe up your anus to check on the situation...
Me:(WHAT THE F*-K?!?!?!??!) Ok.....
Doctor: I'm afraid I don't have anymore lubricant so you'll have to do without it... *chuckles*
Me:(WHAT THE BIGGER F-*K?!?!?!?) Cannot lah sir you sure a not???
Doctor: (oblivious to what i just said...) Ok take off your clothes and lie on your sides facing the wall..... Put your knees as close to your chest as possible.......
Me: Erm... like this??? (gets in position..)
Doctor: Yah..... hold still arh.......

--Enormous Pain in the ass--

Doctor: Hmm... let's move it up a little and see on the upper wall... (talking to the medic)
Doctor: Move it down a little (PAIN!!!) ...Further In a little (MORE PAIN!!!!!!)

--The End of the observation--

Doctor: seems to me like you only have one pile... It isn't that serious. I'll give you medication...... Blah blah blah blah.........

Wah liaozz.... Now I know the pain of having something sticking up your behind is so agonizing.... Wonder how come ppl like anal sex man....... YUCKS!!!!!!!!

Fan2 arh fan2 very very very FAN2.................... Why is everything coming back to me??? Why do I think i still have hope?? Why does this have to happen?? How should I feel??? What can I do?? NOTHING!!!!!! BOOHOOOHOO....... Sigh.......

A faction is rising in my camp.... A bunch of bastards lead by an extreme bastard...... Arrrgggghhh...... One day.... Just one day lah......... Grrrr......... I hate camp politics....

"i mean, u will understand clearly this thing is making me angry...

u will know how it is making u angry

and most importantly, u will understand tt it cannot make u angry unless u allow it to... "

Words of a wise friend told me this recently....... Not to control and suppress your anger but to know what your anger is about and thus knowing what it is you will understand that it cannot make u angry unless you allow it to. Thus begins my journey, a journey to self-discovery and my enemy anger..... One step at a time, for everything will come into place and the dawn of a new era begins....

Who am I : Carey Loy Changming
Nationality: Singaporean
Height: 169
Weight: 73 going down.... hopefully
Likes: Anime, games and Friends
Dislikes: Backstabbers
Strength: Kind, straight-forward and jovial
Weakness: Fiery-tempered, easily suspicious and sore loser...........

Any other honest opinions to add guys?

Tales from camp:
Why do I always get a lot of crappy and shitty stuff I don't get it.... Well, the old birds and the new guys have an invisible barrier between both factions and I'm not that close to the old birds.... It kinda sucks being in the middle and left to fend for yourself. Imagine no one to look out for you back....

E.g. 1 - This happened just today.

Me: Eh Lim (another old bird whom I'm not on very good terms.) Is there any rollcall today????
Cpl Lim: I don't know leh... I'm not sure.....
Me: Orh ok......

Little did I know that I was the duty corporal for the day and I was the one to be conducting rollcall..... He could have told me that I was the duty corporal for the day but NOOOOO!!! Selfish and as a bastard he was, he shut his mouth up.... As a result, I got a little screwing session from my sgt......

E.g. 2 -

I noticed something wrong with the schedule and I decided to tell the sgt about it and give welfare to some of the guys. But then NOOOO!!!! Some god damn stupid fucker thinks I'm poking my nose into his business since he is in charge of that bunch of ppl...... I mean wat the f man..... Its just a little welfare what?? So I'm poking in your business??? In the end, the schedule is changed four times lor.... Making things more complicated than ever.....

E.g. 3 -

Two bloody new birds decide to take leave for the day. As a result, I have to come back to do duty. What's irritating is one of them took leave because he didn't want to cover the duty for the other new bird. Another reason was that he could obtain a 6 day break by doing so..... At the same time, there was supposed to be a old bird covering for the shift who happen to take leave as well.... In the end, the arrow was pointed at me.......

The politics in camp are utterly disgusting. There's this old bird whose freaking sly and cunning. He purposely gets close to the new guys and tries to befriend them. His real intention is actually to convince the crowd in his favour of things. Occasionally when he has to cover duty and stuff, he whines for half the day and makes it seem as if the whole world owes him something. But actually the other old birds have been covering just as much or have suffered just as much. Recently the f-er almost sabotaged me into prowling duties. On the other hand. there's another equally scheming new bird. When you tell him to do something, he just pushes the arrow in another's direction. The best part is that he makes it seem as if he's done a lot when he's done nothing and pushes others to do the job for him just because he doesn't want to do it. If you force it upon him to carry out the task, he will initially question and then give a smile and carry out the orders. Little do people know that he backstabs and complains behind other peoples' back. In fact, he's like acting as a leader amongst the new guys telling them what to do and teaching them how to plan for themselves. Sigh..... the horrible tales of my camp..... ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD..........

Tales from Shopping:
You would really never get anything done if you keep planning and not take any action. That's why I dragged my feet down to peninsular plaza today to buy and check out stuff. Apparently, the shop was closed by the time i reached hence it was a rather fruitless trip, I thought to myself. Determined not to make this trip a wasted one, I decided to walk around the plaza checking out the shops and stuff they sell. To my surprise, I found a lot of interesting items which no one thought could be sold there..... Below is a list of what i found at the various shopping plazas I visited:

Peninsular Plaza:
This places has a lot of thais and foreigners around. The main attraction is all the travel agencies which books tickets for the foreigners at cheap and affordable prices back home. Apart from travel agencies, there's also shops selling thai stuff like their traditional clothes, groceries, religious stuff and even a thai eatery. Moreover there's this famous shop that sells climbing equipment here which a lot of ppl seem to know about it which i do not know why... hmm wonder whats the attraction here....

Peninsular Shopping Plaza:
Its located directly opposite peninsular plaza. Mind you its a completely different place as the one above. Yes, I haven't got the places and names mixed up. Its something like a mini queensway. There's quite a few shops selling sports shoes and equipment. There's also shops selling funky and hip-hop clothing located at the basement. I wonder if they're cheap and the prices can be negoiated. All hard rock band wannabes look out!!! There's at least three shops selling hard rock stuff such as chains, chokers, badges and belts. An addition to that, there's places where bands can jam and play their songs. Cool huh?!? One more thing worth mentioning is the shop that sells western goods. Yes, COWBOY Style from boots to hats you've name it you got it man.......

Excelicor Plaza (If i remember properly):
Its a pretty small shopping center beside Peninsular shopping Plaza. The basement is worth looking out for. That's where all model kit makers gather and purchase their stuff. The models that are made here are mostly human models suchs as comic and anime characters. There's very little robots or otherwise known as mecha models. The upper levels consist of indian recording companies. I could see people in the rooms playing traditional tamil music using the tabala (not sure of the spelling... correct me if i'm wrong). At the top level, there's a korean restaurant and a chinese restaurant. Apparently there's a buffet for the chinese restaurant for both dim sum and dinner. Wonder if its any nice... YUMMY!!! And there's CLUBS at the top level as in nightclubs which is pretty interesting.... Was pretty tempted to go find out how its like in these places whahahahahah........

Adephi Center:
This place has become another Sim Lim and Funan Centre. It sells bascially a lot of video hardware. For e.g. tvs, hi-fis, surround-systems etc. No computers though.

Sunshine Plaza:
This is the other place model makers should look out for. It sells lots of mecha models. Certain shops also sell car, tank and battle models which are pretty rare in singapore. Moreover, there's the Anime House!!!! For all anime goers, please look out for this place. Sells lots of anime series which are not found in singapore. In fact, its one of the few remaining shops that sell anime in singapore already. Apart from that, they also sell anime accessories and posters.

Bugis Street:
My final and last stop. Its like a pasar malam. There's pretty much stuff being sold mostly hip and trendy stuff. In fact, its like a cheap warehouse of hip and trendy clothes and accessories. If you ever visit this place, do tell me man coz i also wanna shop hehehe..... Actually my real intention is to see the chio shop owner that sells women's accessories such as bracelets and necklaces. She's pretty and very bubbly and sweet and cute........ Arrrrgggghhhhhh..... Not to mention she has a pretty good fashion taste too hehehhehehe...........

If you guys are wondering, yes I walked from peninsular plaza all the way to sunshine plaza which is located opposite parklane shopping centre (selegie road) and then to bugis street. Took me about 4 hours to finish everything man.... Actually quite a no of shops were closed by the time i reached coz it was a sunday and i guess not many ppl frequent this places. So no point in closing late right? I realised actually shopping can be pretty fun going to these kind of places not to mention adventurous coz you may find many interesting things. In fact, an appeal to the gals out there...... BRING ME OUT SHOPPING IN FUTURE!!!! Ahahahahah afterall can lose weight and look at stuff..... pretty fun thing to do especially when you're bored. Afterall can window shop too.... In fact, I'm calling out to all guys to shop and explore places you've never been b4. You never know what you might find at the place nearby. Do give it a try!!!

My life:
Its really sucky to feel alone all the time. Ever since from young I was always the outcast, the extra one. Little did that change when i entered primary school. My classmates always bullied me and picked on me. Even when I tried my best at everything, it just seemed that it was enough for them. Could clearly remember once when somebody place another students bag in the toilet. In the end, I was to take the blame and endure the humuliation of being framed. Not to mention 10 strokes of the cane on my hand. To think that the situation would change with a transfer of primary school was a mistake. In fact, since i was the new student, they would always pick on me, taunt at me and make fun of me. I had always liked to say the word "shit" which my teacher thought it was a bad word. So she forbid me from saying it by punishing me to write lines. In the end, I had to replace "shit" with "sharks". That was of no use as my classmate practically "sabohed" me and telling the teacher I said shit. As a result, I had to write one thousand lines of " I will not say the word shit in class". It just felt so lonesome with no one to hang out with often.
Secondary school was worst, I grew more naive and fiery-tempered. Gone were the days where I used to keep my temper and cool. Instead, my fists spoke with rage and fury. I kinda decided to be more defensive over myself and ended up with fights here and there. Journeys to school and back were tiring, and studies was no better. Thankfully, I had a good friend whom accompanied me till sec 2. That was when we lost contact as each of us went our different ways. Sec 3 and 4 was pretty horrifying. It gave me a prelude to wat its was to be like in the real world. Everyone was so competitive and they always gave lies and whined non-stop about tests. In the end, I was the one with the lousy grades and they were the ones with the good ones. IT kinda sucked. Projects were always done by me alone even in group projects. Which never taught me anything but sharpened my presentation skills.
Maybe it was because of this childhood of mine which made me the way I am. My character, my temper, my attitude. As a result, I became a lone ranger. Used to being alone in everything. I was the only one who transferred into a new primary school with no friends at all. I was the only one from my primary school that went to Chinese High. I was the only one from my class that went from Chinese High to VJC. And I was the only one who entered Dog unit. Its a simple story wherever I went I had to make new friends and adapt in a new environment always. It never stopped. Life and people kept changing and changing which made me feel so helpless and lonesome sometimes. I mean at least other people had friends from their primary school and secondary school who entered the same school with them. I only had accuqaintances. Maybe that's why I want my journey of lonesome to come to an end so much. Hey life still goes on..... Life is like a boat out at sea........

Tales of a Dog Handler
Its early on a Friday morning, what am I doing???? *YAWNZ* Just obtained a half day off given to me by my staff because of my hard work at the parade rehearsal. Its not any normal parade rehearsal mind you. Its a dog passing out parade rehearsal. So imagine this, your dog and you doing drills like turning left and turning right, marching, wheeling as a line, attention and at ease etc. Sounds fun??? Not when you know that you've been training the dog under the sun for months and he still pulls you during marching... Incorrigible.... Grrrrr......
Well, training is tough and rehearsals are no far better..... The distance between my dog and the next one is like three paces away. So if any two jokers look at each other and stare.... Well, "Houston, we have a dogfight..." And if the dogs get injured or anything happens, the handlers are to be blamed how about that?? Coz you didn't take good care of the dogs.... As simple as that... Wah lan eh?!?!? What to do??? You can't blame the dog, you can't charge the dog and send it to DB so whose fault do we point it too?? The handlers' fault....
I tell you it ain't tough being a dog handler too..... The risk that we get bitten everyday is always there.... The risk of getting charged because the dog is not managed well is always there.... The risk of getting screwed by your camp mates is always there.... The risk of doing lots of sai Kang (a.k.a. dirty/manual or rather both) is always there.... The fear is always there... So kids don't try this at home..... ( Wat the dickens am I talking man......) Well, I'm not comparing with you officers or specs or anything lah..... Just saying you know every job has its own advantages and disadvantages... We all have our different responsiblities....
Well, its at least comforting to know I have a good superior who acknowlegdes our hard work and effort. He's intending to give us off for it.... Another plus point would be the satisfaction of seeing your dog pass out as an offically trained guard dog..... Hey you guys better not play punk with my dog i tell you arh.... He's quite fierce one leh..... Only with me then he dare to fool around... If its someone he doesn't know he'll bark and chiong (a.k.a go for) the person.... Heheheh... But dogs are really cute... Maybe I'll post a picture or if possible a video about him soon hehehehe..... Kawaii!!!!!

Tales from the Sinseh........
Sprained my leg yesterday..... Or rather AGAIN.... SAME LEG SAME INJURY SAME REASON....... Wahahhahaah coz I was trying to slide for the ball and my body landed on my leg then I heard a thud sound followed by excruciating pain.... Then, we skip a few scenes to the sinseh........
At the Sinseh:
Sinseh(Translated from Hokkien): Boy arh! Your Injury Very long time ago one arh.....
He carries on massaging my leg..... By this time, I'm already in La La Land because of the pain.... Still he carries on massaging at the same time talking. Suddenly towards the end, I feel faint and breathless.... Of course, the sinseh would have noticed it and he asks me to relax my body completely..... My vision starts to blur and I feel very light.... He instructs me to drink a cup of warm water which i feebily glup down.... Miraculously I begin to feel better as I break out in cold sweat....

Hmm... Okay better get down to my interesting things i found out at the sinseh.... Chinese medicine really is very interesting, as in he could tell I injured my leg b4 and his fast and correct assessment of the situation prevented me from blacking out... hmm... If I had gone to the Western Doctor, he would have given me painkillers and instructed me on how to go about stretching and doing a little physiotherapy for my leg...... Which cures the pain not the problem.... Rite?!?!? Anyone care to talk abt it?

Sharon's Clone

Ladies and Gentlemen..... Yes the super duper boliaoz King is back with more bo liao stuff.... Since you guys said that sharon looks like the model above maybe we can do some comparision??!?!?! Shit i Hope Sharon Never I mean NEVER STUMBLES ON THIS WEB PAGE IF not........ That's it for me man....... Shitto...... *trembles in fear*

Sharon 

Pinky Meet Pinky!!!
This was one of my favourite photos amongst all the lot....... hmm... which reminds me, I really took a lot of photos leh.... Wah liaozz.... Looking back at some I really think i should go take up some photography lessons coz I don't have any skill at taking photos myself.... Oh yes back to the photo, Isn't it great?!?!? Lester found his own PINK CAR!!!! Somemore its so SOO SOOOOO CUTE!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAH...... lester not sure if you're ever gonna read this but NICE RITE?!?!?

Lexus

As you can see above its another one of the better models and better (a.k.a. more expensive) cars..... She has the sophisticated and classy look which brings out the car doesn't it??? Ok ok I think by now you guys who are reading this think I'm one big Hum Sup Kia.... But heck, if got good stuff must share wHat rite??? Of course I'm not going to aim for a lexus coz I already have my own dream car!! Heheheh...... that's if another cooler looking car comes a long maybe I'll reconsider........ Wahahahhaha

The WRX

As you can see above this is my DREAM CAR!!!! It has the power, the precision and it looks so COOL!!!! At least in my eyes that is..... Can't believe why weiyi and lester said it was nothing fantastic...... Tsk tsk tsk..... Hopefully one day i could get to drive and own one of it though Car prices are KILLERS due to the bloody COE and ROAD TAXES.... Sigh..... Oh well its only like about one hundred and ten thousand lor....... So let me work hard towards my goal lah!!!!

Babe, Dude and CAR!!!!!

Went to the Car Show at Suntec yesterday with Lester and Weiyi..... The cars were really fantastic man!!! I could feast my eyes on the coolest cars like the Mazda-RX 8, Subaru-WRX, Ferrari-Spyder, Mitsubishi-Lancer Evo......... Awesome man... As what weiyi said, the babes are less attractive than the cars wahahahahaha... In fact, there were only a few good looking ones only lor.... Sianzz.... Oh well.... Can't upload more than one photo in one entry so had to do a few wahahahha........

Had a very weird dream two days ago.... If I'm not wrong its the second or third time since i had this dream which made all the more bizarre....... The dream starts off with Sammi Cheng and Jordan Chan chatting at a shopping mall..... They are doing a love, dovey things that couple would do. Then all of a sudden, they start quarrelling with each other which results in both of them storming off...... Jordan Chan walks to some part of the shopping mall and picks out his keys. He opens the door and enters a particular room that happens to be his HOUSE!!!! He breaks down as soon as he closes the door, tears rolling profusely down his cheek... Now this is where I come in.... I happen to be his roommate or tennant who catches him in his moment of grief as I peek through the doorhole of my room. As i approach him, I calm him down consoling him..... As we talk for quite a while, at a certain point of time the door swings open and our dear Sammi Cheng appears. Somehow, our dear Jordan doesn't realise it partly because his back is facing the main door. An idea flashes though my mind as I try to talk our dear Jordan Chan into talk about his love for Sammi and confessing that he loves her very very very very much! After several futile attempts to do so, he finally manages to mouth out that he loves her. This touches our dear Sammi's heart whose been hearing this conversation all the while...... And then.......................................... and then............................................







I wake up :-P ........
I know its a bit anti-climax but yes i really really woke up at that point of time... Doesn't this sound like some Hong Kong serial drama or some movie that you've seen before.... I don't know about you guys but I just find it so familar..... Maybe because I've dreamt about it a few times..... There's even a background song in my dream which i cannot make out of it now.... Hmmm... as for the conversation and wat the people in my dream were saying its all a blur now so sorry for the details.... heheheheheh.... And if i've made you guys sit through a boring episode of my life sorry hehehe.......

Oscar from Shark's Tale

As you guys can see in the pic, its oscar from Shark's Tale..... we were supposed to watch it two weeks ago but we couldn't get tickets. Well, we were supposed to watch it yesterday and guess what?!? WE STILL CAN"T GET THE FREAKIN TICKETS!!!!!! Wat the hum-a-la-la........ This is so irritating man..... Don't tell me we have to wait for god-knows-how-many-saturdays (no offence god but yah......) before we can finally watch the show????

Lesson no.1 learnt: If you wanna watch a movie on a weekend or towards a weekend, get it hours in ADVANCED!!

Lesson no.2 learnt: Don't watch movies on a weekend if its a last minute thingy.......

Lesson no.3 learnt: If you wanna organise a last min thingy watch a movies which no one wants to watch like Bride and Prejudice (some indian/uk show: can hear the indians going oooiii.... you got a problem?)

Cheerios.......

Heyo long time since I updated on my personal life heheh.... I'm considering of converting this blogger to be a semi personal and review blogger..... Wonder if it'll be cool..... Anyway, I've already started with two entries about Gundam so let's wait and see how lah.... What do you guys think???
Life's pretty much the same for me...... Looking forward to the long weekend coming this week.... Got off from thur to mon.... PHOAH! SHIOK MAN! I guess the japan craze is starting to hit me again coz I've spent the whole week d/l over 5 gig of anime.... So much that i almost burnt out my comp..... Scary thought man.... Phew.... That has been occupying my whole week.... Actually I realise that I enjoy watching anime a lot.... Maybe i really like to fantasize a lot about stuff and imagining things.... Hmmm should stop dwelling about that..... But it would be nice to live in a fantasy world.... Oh no there i go again!!!! Stop day/night dreaming!!!!
Well, I've been training dogs recently.... His name is Atos..... Kinda cute doggie who can stand on his two strong hind legs... Maybe I'll upload his photo on the blogger sometime soon.... He's very adorable but he doesn't have any Kennel Hygiene.... Stupid hum-a-la-la (replacement of vugalrities) Everytimes he pees and shits in his kennel, he will jump on me after stepping on his piss and faeces..... *Gross* :~~~~<.... Well, he's still a pup only one year old but he can't inflict a nasty wound on ya if you don't take him seriously...... Hopefully he passes the obidience and baiting assessment at the end of this month, although there's a slight problem.... hehehehhe.........
Oh well, i'll just have to train him harder for the coming week and the nxt!!! To infinity and beyond!!!!

Freedom

I got this from the NUS Anime forum which is very hilarious but so so true. This is posted by someone called Kero-Kun:

Dun shoot the scriptwriters, this is because this is one of the unwritten rules whenever a scriptwriter writes a Gundam story. Gundams must always get stolen in the 1st ep Other unwritten rules for scriptwriters to follow when writing the plot for a Gundam storyline:
1. The main character must never die, except maybe at the last ep.
2. His arch enemy must never die, except maybe during the 2nd last ep.
3. All other characters are expendable.
4. There must always be a war between 2 opposing factions , usually leading to a epic final battle near the ending.
5. The body-count must reach a certain predefined amount at the end of each story. (Most scriptwriters achieve this by killing off lots of people in the epic battle stated in 4.)
6. There must ALWAYS be a guy wearing a mask inside the story.
7. The definition of GUNDAM must always explained inside the storyline, irregardless that it is actually a improper english word.
8. The main character's original Gundam Suit must get destroyed somewhere in the middle of the story, to facilitate him getting an upgrade.
9. The main character would usually (find/steal/rob/receive as a Xmas present) a spanking new upgraded mobile suit with more firepower and a new feature that everybody else wants, but only he has. He will usually get it an few eps after his old suit blew up.
10. There be must enough loose ends at the end of each story so that a sequel/OVA /movie/ season 2 can be produced. (Bandai needs to milk its cash cows as much as possible.)
11. There must be enough robots in each Gundam story so that extra mechandise, such as Gundam models of each mobile suit, character artbooks, DVDs, video games, Haro Haro soft toys, can be produced. (Mooooooo....... ) and the most important unwritten rule is ...
12. The look and design of the Gundam's face must NEVER change! (Turn A broke the rule and was condemned for eons to come...).
By the way, doesn' t the main characters' Gundam design remind you of the 70's Robot anime? Several parts combine to form a mobile suit, haha they really ran out of ideas. Wonder is they are going to repeat the transformation sequence in every episode, like in those 70s anime last time.

Gundam Seed Crew

From the creators of Gundam, here comes a brand new series Gundam Seed!!! This is an alternate universe series which has a lot of depth in it. The series came out last year actually and the legit dvds won't be out till nxt year or so... The story begins during the Cosmic Era 71, where Kira Yamato, a Coordinator, and his friends are be dragged into a conflict between the Earth Alliance and Zaft. Heliopolis, a space colony, is the setting at the beginning. A secret production of Gundams is being carried out by the Earth Federation and preparations are on the way for launching of the Gundams. However, Zaft already has other plans and deploys men to steal the Gundams. During the fighting, emeges our young hero, Kira. In his attempt to save the life of a female stranger he boards one of the Gundam called Strike and realises he is stuck in a sticky situation. He soon takes up arms and pilots Strike and fights against other four Gundams stolen by the Zaft federation. After a few battle scenes, he and his friends board a battleship known as the Archangel. Hence, beginning a series of adventures.
Gundam Seed has a very good storyline not to mention plot with quite a few twists and turns here and there.... Not to mention that each episode ends in suspense, keeping viewers glued to their seats. The characters and Mechas are drawn to a high level of detail and intricately which makes them highly appealing to the viewers. The animation wise is average with some 3D effects at times. Another plus point about this animation is its music. The opening and endings songs for Gundam Seed are fantastic with artists like T.M Revolution, See-saw and Nami Tamaki. Moreover, the background songs would make someone empathize with the characters and setting the ideal mood for each scene during the show.
Gundam Seed is no doubt an excellent piece of work by Sunrise and is currently a very popular anime still. Although there are minor flaws where there is little details at certain point of time, the animation thoroughly deserves a 4 out of 5 stars.

Shit!?!?!? Haven't been updating my bloggy for weeks. Poor bloggy... Been neglecting you for so long..... Sigh.... Actually I'm like the main culprit whose been so busy doing what?? Nothing..... MUahahahah ahh... Hmm... ok must at least look guilty *guilty look*.......
Been busy watching anime recently.... So caught up with episodes of various series that i can't help d/l them non-stop. As a result, my comp's flooded with at least 4 gig of anime.... Goodness me.... It really kinda feels great to watch and enjoy anime..... Sometimes your mind just wonders off to Fantasia- a land where all fantasy exist and are realised.... Isn't it great to imagine yourself being a person entrusted with an impt mission which would change the course of many people's lives be it good or bad? Or maybe a romantic love story which you are playing the lead role? Well, it sounds too good to be true huh? That's why they call these fantasies..... But still can get enough of them.... is it because i've still not grown up yet?? I'm sure ppl around my age consider this as childish and a waste of time but why do I feel so happy when i'm watching anime? Maybe because I know my fantasies won't come true in real life I guess...... sigh....
Hehehe..... I think i'll post lots of anime scenes and interesting stuff abt anime on this blog to make it more lively and fun ehhehe... Like it or not its my blog WAHAHAH.....

Hmmm... Been celebrating people's birthday..... Personally I felt I was kind of rude to walk out during dinner at rice table and go to the arcade to play some drums... Sorry Louis.... Really fan.... Wanted to fa xie fa xie..... Well, I'm not sure but I felt that his previously birthday was more meaningful and memorable to him. The one where we had a simple dinner with chilli crab sweet and sour pork and other yummy yummy stuff like satay.... Then we went to my house ( god knows why my house) to cut a manga CAKE!!! YUMMY!!!!! Just felt that last year was more memorable rite??? Don't know why I talking about it but heck.... Just felt like saying something about it.....
I'm IRRITATED!!!! Which god damn bloody joker stole my one and only last GUNDAM SEED DVD... F!$#ER CH!#$AI REALLY PISSED ARRRRRGGGHHH..... And I went all the way to look for the damn DVD and guess what THERE"S NO MORE PRODUCTION SOBZZZZZZ arhrhrhrhrhrhrhrh........ HELP ME!!!!!! GRRR have to wait till the original come out NXT YEAR!!!! Can't believe it.... luckily i have a little box which stores all my dvd and vcd collections... Which i will carefully lend to ppl in future... GRRRR......

Who is the joker that wrote a msg that goes : " Carey I'll Always Love You!!!" Ok If anyone of you reading this was the guilty one better step out man... And its not funny..... MUAHAHAHHA.... Its damn crappy wahahha...... but seriously would like to find out which Tom, Dick or Harry did this job hehehe........ didn't realise it till I switched off my hp and switched it on again..... Had a shock at first then realised that i was probably meant as a joke...
Suspects: My campmates or anyone who has borrowed my phone.... Gives me the shudders which one could have done it... SHIVER SHIVER...

She asked me out yesterday which was a surprise to me..... why would she have asked me out?? Her reason was because she wanted to destress and also I had asked her if she wanted to watch The New Police Story with me.... Kinda makes me wonder sometimes.. heck I think i'm over doing things sometimes.... Too sensitive to every god damn thing... which is a bad and good thing of course.... We're just friends.. Control yourself, She's just being a good friend that's all... Ok logically reasoning done....
My life's in a mess now.... I ain't sure I can handle people in the future when I come out to work. maybe its all because of my experience with my campmates which makes me ponder, Can I handle work well?? Firstly I'm too hot tempered. Secondly I'm too sensitive and suspicious. I don't even trust people sometimes which makes it hard for me... Afterall, who is there that can be trusted at a workplace??? I feel incompetent as a manager or someone of a high status which such short comings. Anyone care to offer suggestions or help?? Hopefully more working experience would help.... I guess...

LEE SAN SAN..... MY IDOL MAN........
SHE ROCKS MY WORLD.........

In case you guys think I'm mad, I just saw Lee San san on this drama cum horror serial from hong kong. She's an actress with all the chio elements.... Sparkling eyes, great figure, big boobs... WAH...... MELTING MELTING LIAOZZZz.... not to mention that she's a miss hongkong in the year 1997.... She's just so beautiful.... CAN DIE LIAOZZZ ARRRGGGHHGHG... Must try to get her photo soon....

LEE SAN SAN....

Well, I'm in a deep deep thought nowadays. Thinking about life around me and what should i do when i go out to the working world. I keep thinking about how to treat ppl and how to play my cards rite which makes me real frustrated coz now i'm confused about the concept of friends... Sigh... How to know who is real and who is not? I just don't wanna get stabbed again.... Hmm... Think think think....
I'm surprised at how good my fitness level is now... Can keep up with my sgt for 3.6 km run... Feel damn good man.. ehehehe Its like I was lagging by only wat 30-40m... YEAH!!!! Looks like all those cycling did something lor hehehe.... Hopefully can lose more weight then i can be as good looking as Brad Pitt hehhehe..... Just found out something shitty.... My one month of off has been CANCELLED.... No MORE GONE.... FINISH... LIAOZZZ!!!! Screw my bloody CO man... What the hell cannot have off... Give some crap reason.... Wah lanzzz If i see him in my camp i will surely make my dog bite or at least bark at the no good jabroni piece of crap....
Apart from that bad news there's been other bad news abt things going on in my friend's love life sigh... Hopefully everything will turn out rite...

La tee doo... La tee dey... My name is Carey I'm king of the jungle todae..... Oheoeoeoeoe........
Okay gotta admit that's one bunch of jabronish crap which god knows what is it? Well life's still the same just that the londoners have gone back to london of course... Well good riddens of Xianna, huiyuan and ZHAO QING wahahhah notice the caps on a particular someone?? Hope fully he doesn't get to know abt it then i won't have to hear him whine whine whine.... Sigh.... There's always good and bad news going on around me... sucks.... The thing is how do i deal with it... I've gotta have faith in myself. I guess i'm still not grown up enough to handle such stress and stuff.... Happy-go-lucky with and attitude and brains...
hmm... my diet has been successful and i'm back to after my bmt... great man shiok.. Hopefully it doesn't grow back again heehheh

Its pretty interesting to see people get drunk after clubbing or in the middle of it... Heck.... That didn't make any sense... But its interesting to what people do when they get drunk. I've heard so many stories and seen a few cases myself. Initially, you don't realise that they are drunk. But when they start to do crazy things and things that are out of the norm... That's when the showtime begins....

Scenario 1:
This happened last nite between my campmate and another friend of his. We were at zouk and the music was bad. I ordered two jugs of long island tea and vodlka lime. Apparently, two of them have never tried it before and they are poor drinkers. Halfway from finishing the drinks, the two jabronis started prancing around claiming they were high. They started speaking noisily and loudly. The next thing, I knew they had just finished three jugs of drinks and were like saying," We're high man!!! So high!!" One guy whom i didn't know stared telling me stories about my campmates when they were in jc... I wasn't really interested with what he had to say and he went on with it anyway. The music at zouk sucked and they decided to have a change of place. I was like helpless and went with it anyway. We went down from zouk to china black then to double o..... Which was stupid coz it was a pure waste of cab fare which they paid (they were kinda high and well they practically agreed to wateva i said....) Along the way, my campmate was like " He He He... Wah Lao Eh..." He was already mistaking me for another person.... The other guy just kept talking about the stupid things they did and stuff....
At double o, those twos guys were already gone coz they had diff in standing up. They entered anyway. Paid 20 bucks to get in... The moment they got in two fellas exited the place.... Puked over at the grass patch.... Too bad no choice had to send them home and end my nite... At almost every junction that the driver came to, we had to stop and allow the two guys to puke along the roadside which was like one heck of a waste of time...... It was like STOP * PUKE * STOP * PUKE *.... In the end the cab fare amounted to 55 bucks which was partly due to the stopping and stuff...

Hmm... not very interesting but kinda amusing to see heehee.... maybe shall talk abt other clubbing incidents in future... "Grenadier Loy's Clubbing Incidents" should change my blog name soon wahahha crappy...

Stress god damn freakin stress..........

STRESS STRESS STRESS............ This doesn't make me any better... ARRRRGGGHHHH STRESS..........

Damn it.... Why am I so stressed when it isn't me who is taking exams... ARRRRGGGHHH STRESS STRESS STRESS..........

A dog just passed away in my camp.... Kinda sad and shocked for a while. I could just remember the morning before he passed away. He as so happy and bubbly. It just kept rubbing my legs for attention. Wanting me to pet and play with him. The next day, I saw it lying on the stretcher with its eyes wide open. He was dead. It was then I realised how fragile life was. One moment you maybe doing something, the next who knows what will happen..... Treasure life and hold the people around you dearly.

Sabre, rest in peace. May you find eternal happiness. I miss you.

Had Council bbq yesterday. It was really fun to see people whom I haven't seen for a long time. Somehow the atmosphere wasn't the same as before.... It kinda felt as if something was missing... Maybe what lester said was right, people went their own ways. So it wouldn't be easy for them to talk to one another again. Rather, we weren't as close as before and had to re-familarise ourselves again.Its kinda sad but that's life. People move on and some don't. That's were the strong friendships are forged. Back about the bbq, we still had lots of fun with the standard forfeit games and crappy jokes. Kinda makes me feel fuzzy and warm to see such a sight again. Everyone having fun. The same old jolene acting as bimb as usual. ling ling with her forever cheerful and bubbly character. Grace Lee the forever whining auntie.
I'm so glad I used the camera. Its the only device which captures such fun moments and brings people back in time.However, I wonder when uni comes, I wonder how many would still remain. Its like a photograph with people slowly fading away from it. The faces just disappear on the photo. Just like the way it is now.But one thing's for sure I never regretted choosing VJ. It taught me more than what I could learn in my sec school and primary. In fact, my jc friends are still teaching me about life and how to be a person. Sincerely, thank you *bows*

It was one of the weirdest things that happened to me yesterday. A little background info: My mom is a very religious person and believes in Buddhism. My mom woke me up early in the morning. Me in my blur blur did the usual stuff in the morning. Just as I stepped out from the toilet, she spoke, " Master says you have a girlfiend already."

"No lah where got?? I don't have lah." I was bewildered by her comment. Its kinda funny that she said that coz I was like in a half daze.

"Yes, you have. But she's not very close." She quipped.

"No lah I really don't have a girlfriend lah....." I replied her.

"Whatever it is. Take things easy...." She said. Then, I was left there completely stunned. I was like what on earth was that about??? It was pretty interesting to think about who that person would be and I practically spent the whole darn morning thinking who would it be... Who would it be.... Haaahaahaa..... The silly little things that pop up in my life. Teeeheheeeheee

The Regret

My regret is the reason,

Why I'm sad.

Its not because I'm so fat,

But where my mouth is at.

Its not funny,

Neither can I play dummy.

Now I feel like our dear friend,

Mr Humpty Dumpty.

I had a great fall,

Off the brick wall.

As my heart says it all,

My mind does a total recall.

28th is a date,

Which I'll grow to hate.

It wasn't something I ate,

Neither was it about my pre-destined fate.

It was my mouth,

It should go to hell.

Which leaked out everything,

With secrets and well.

I don't blame anyone,

But myself.

What's been said,

Can't be undone.

I've just only brought myself more harm.

Which I think is really dumb.

Right now my heart and soul,

Is just feeling so numb.

I'm sorry if anyone got disgusted,

I'm really just a big fat bastard.

Now what is needed,

Is more than just exceeded.

Now I end this here,

Thank you for lending me your ear.

One advice you should adhere,

Is to watch what you speak oh dear dear dear..............

Nothing but ramblings of a sad, embarrassed and very confused person who needs help.... *yawnzzz*

Went to China Black on thursday for Law Bash.... Was kinda fun but lonely coz the person whom accompanied me was like on a hunt for females lor... Hmmm... I wonder man... See the way Mr Yu picks up gals arh like super easy like dat. How come arh? Are people really in for a good time? Let's say if you were just there for making out with another person and you saw that person in future wouldn't it be a little embarassing? Then again its Ken Min heheh... I thought about myself... Realised that I lack a lot of self-confidence. Kinda sucks heheheh wanted to jio a gal but realised had no guts to do so for fear of rejection. Well... rejection does sux! Afterall, once bitten twice shy... *whine*
Went out with the councilors on fri(fish and co) and sat(jo's play) and today(see zhaoqing the bugger off).... Really felt so comfortable and warm inside... Guess they really are my second family. Just feel so comfortable around them... *MUAHZZ* Love you guys... For standing me and all my crap nonsense... Thank You!

Ok ok exageration but ultimate rule no. 1 : NEVER MIX YOUR FEELINGS WITH WORK.

I've come to realise the fact that no one really gives anyone any chances or rather a second chance in this world. That's how life is. Sad isn't it... No one would lose to another person on purpose afterall even if nothing's on stake. Looking at my camp, I've come to realise that at work there are no friends. Only colleagues and nothing else. No one would bother about your feelings coz they only care about themselves. Only your close friends and family care about you. No one gives a damn whether you're gonna get charged or gives you a second chance. In fact, there's no need to give face when it comes to working matters. Care about yourself and only you coz if you don't no one will. There's no need to be courteous and think about welfare for other people or take the rap for other people because you will realise that they don't appreciate your help but they are only making use of you to do things. Pretty ironical isn't it? Your intentions are to help someone at the expense of yourself but instead you are the one they mock at being stupid.
From now on, I'll make a promise to myself to watch out for my own back at work and no one else. There's no point caring for others since they don't really give a shit about you. I'm the only important one. Push the blame to others and not take the blame coz it isn't worth it. Be politically correct and do not be afraid to offend others. Afterall, being true and caring is only to be vulnerable to attacks or to be eaten by others alive. Your friends are those that are outside of your workplace and never in your workplace. Maybe I'm disillusioned with people in this society but unless someone proves me wrong..... Someone else who is also willing to lay his neck down for others at work (excludes civil servants and those who are supposed to help others as a living) only then will I reconsider what I have said.

Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've felt so low
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

Sometimes I'm an idiot othertimes I think I'm still an idiot.... Don't know why but I'm always an idiot... So frustrated and angry that I decided to take a walk.... Its just so weird at times that you feel the whole world hates you, but they don't. Maybe its a occasional mood swing that makes you feel as if you're the scum of the universe. Argh.... My life is in such a haywire I don't have any idea wat's going on..... My camp life is so messy that i don't know if i can live another day in camp with my campmates.... On the outside, I wonder if the people whom I hold closest to my heart are so put off with the lousy attitude I give that they don't give a damn hoot about me anymore... Perhaps they're just fed up of my lousy mood swings and tantrums... Sigh.... What's the use apologizing and then you do the same thing over again...
I wonder what's wrong with me? Is it my heart that is ruling my head now..... I guess so... I just feel so angry and fiery nowadays.... Its like this huge fire or ball of methane which is waiting to burst out someday.... Perhaps I just control myself too much everytime. When something irritates me, I just keep to myself and walk away from it. It accumulates and snowballs till I can't take it anymore and I just break down... Like a ragged doll that no one wants..... I mean why does my campmates force me to do what i don't wanna do? Why can't I just lead i simple normal NS career without having to worry about the politics in camp and about the new guys?? Can't I just be myself and be friendly and nice?!? Maybe if you're too nice people climb over your head. But how to know when is carrying things i little too far by being too fierce?? Then some other old birds just want me to be strict to them? I'm too soft. I'm too kind. So what you want me to do? Sigh.... Then there's council which happens to be my second family and enemy at times... Maybe I depend too much on others to want them to share some of my woes and pain but I just feel like crumbling at times...... Why can't I just be straightforward and frank? Just speak my mind out at times? For fear of offending people? Yes I guess that's the reason why.... I just hate to make enemies.... Why can't I do things without making enemies and why can't everyone just be friends? Its a naive thought but its something I hold closely to in my heart. Its just that I hate to offend people and when I offend people I just feel so guilty and remorseful about it...... Maybe that's why I take everything so seriously..... There's just too much maybes... Maybe One fine day, I'll realise something that I can follow and hold close to..... Maybe I'll die the next day.... Maybe life's all predestined and no one can change their destiny.... Maybe I'm just writing a pile of bullshit....
Everything's divided by a line but when one blurs the line dividing the two, everything in life seems correct and the right thing to do. Or is it? Ramblings of a thoughful idiotic person.....

Why do I need a girlfriend?? Till now that question has never crossed my mind...... Is it for love? For Sex? To cure my loneliness? Its kinda weird that this question has never crossed my mind.... To me what is a girlfriend?? Someone to take away all my pain and loneliness?? Its kinda funny that I never thought about that quetion.... Moreover, I've always thought about myself. What do I have to give the opposition?? What can I give her?? Can I give her happiness?? Can I do the same?? Take away her pain and loneliness?? I just realised how stupid, dumb, childish and selfish I was..... Love is never about one person but about two.... It takes two hands to clap but it takes two hearts to love each other.... It never was just about me me and me... Instead what have I done to deserve her. Yes load her gifts and talk about things but have I really truly and sincerely ever took away her pain and gave her anything to be happy about? Materialisticlly yes I think I have but never have I warmed her heart.... Now it has dawn upon me why did she reject me.... I have absolutely nothing that can comfort and care for her needs and everything.... We can click but loving each other is different.... I guess finally I can see a bit of the light... I hope....

Of course, saying or writing this is gonna change nothing but one thing for sure, when I'm in denial and think about her I will tell myself this... To love someone is to care and give them something that their hearts would be warmed forever.... It takes two hearts to love so don't be selfish. Be mature....... Don't always think about yourself yourself. Think about others.... Hopefully I'm mature enough to make sense into that thick skull of mine..... But one thing is for sure I'll be a happier man if I think maturely.....

Life isn't about the choices you have but more about the choices to make and how you live with your choices. I've always told myself that but I realise there's more to it.... Yes it about the choices you make but how you live with it is the real difficult part coz we are all humans... Now I realise that to comfort someone isn't easy.... Just by saying the politically correct thing doesn't solve anything, speaking rationally does.... Maybe what I'm typing now is more of crap than truth but hey at least I'm typing my heart out..... When I look back two, twenty years at least I know I wrote my true feelings.... And judge whether what I have said is true or false.....

Sigh.... Feel so shitty nowadays... It all started when my campmate got angry with me for god knows wat reasons.... The only thing i could guess was that I my attitude must have been so heck care towards going to the Jeff Chang concert that he decided to go without me.... sigh....... Then that's where the whole trouble started.... I don't really enjoy the company of my campmates sometimes but nothing can be helped abt that.... Its all so political and irritating to just try and manouever your way thru NS without touching politics at all.... SUcky... Then comes along the little funny thing called LUUV which always never fails to make me jealous or shitty... Wahahha somehow or rather i must have gotten used to this kind of life ever since I was out of LUUV....

Was at intra yesterday. Somehow or rather i was already feeling shitty before the event.... Sprained my leg in soccer which was totally sianzzz..... Afterall it was my fault. Who called me to be so trigger happy sliding everywhere.... In the end, went in the wrong way and heard a crack when i went in..... SUCKS.... Met so many ppl in intra whom i haven't seen in donkey jabroni years..... It kinda felt like a big reunion but i just didn't felt as if I belonged in the group.... Keep wanting to talk to people but couldn't coz everytime i talked was interrupted.... Moreover, I don't talk so much in a group rather prefer in small groups or one on one..... Don't know why.... I just felt so hollow and invisible that nite rather than catching up with old times... Perhaps I'm just not in conversing that's all.... Don't we all feel the same muahahhaha.... One thing for sure I'm pretty happy or rather comforted to see a Ma and a Hoe together seeems as though they finally made up or something.... Afterall i don't really know the details but wish the best for them....

Sigh..... I'm so lonely and intra perhaps made me even more lonely..... Seeing everyone and feeling so distant... Kinda feels like i'm living in antartica.... Wahahah gu dan bei ban qiu.....

Shit! I forgot to study for my theory exam damn it siaozzz liaozz...... How how?!??! Screw it lah afterall its the second time i've done it wahahahahha..... Besides that, went out to see weiyi's comissioning parade..... Though the drills were f up but i gotta to admit that I was full of envy for the officers or rather officers-to-be..... Everyone didn't care abt whether the drills were f up, they were more concern which one is my son, which one is my friend?!?!? I was so envious becoz i could never take part in such a comissioning parade and was wondering if anyone would do the same for me if i ever did something like a concert or probably a competition....
Writing till here, I realised that all my life I just wanted friends who would cheer me on and spur me on..... During my bowling or any other tournaments, it would just be me and me only..... I was always envious of the other competitors who had people to cheer them or support them on.... It always kinda felt that I was the lone ranger..... So lonely..... Maybe that's why I'm such a desperate person now.... Coz i never felt the encouragement from anyone but myself..... Even when i'm on a journey to losing weight, no one ever gives me words of encouragement. Instead its just ahahahah you serious abt losing weight arh?!?! I understand its jokes sometimes but can't there be just a single word of encouragement like hey you're doing good keep it up?!?! Its abt time someone did it for me instead of me doing it for myself.... Coz I'm tired and sick of telling myself to push myself to limits, telling myself i can do it....... wahahhaha its a little demanding and selfish of me oh well.............

Sianzzz......... I'm still having a fever and headache.... Arrrgggghhh.... What's worse is i still have to work tomolo... grrr...... screw the saf......

Its completely horrifying to see how inefficient the SAF can be...... Bloody hell... Wasn't feeling well yesterday. Down with a fever. Initially the temperature was 37.4 , but it went down in the evening. However, my body took a turn for the worst at midnite and my temperature shot up to 38.7.... Was shivering uncontrollably until i took two panadol tablets..... I called the duty nco to call my sgt and report to him my status which he told to observe my situation first... Unluckily my temperature increased to 39.8.... Something had to be done so my sgt instructed the duty nco to call up control to get a driver down to send me to receive medical attention... Control took 15 min to make clear of the situation and another 15 min to decide what had to be done... Next another 20 min was spent deciding which driver would send me: the runway driver or the control driver..... The driver took one hour to come pick me up to the medical centre...By the time action was taken, my temp had subsided.... After "much" diagnosis, the medic transferred me to paya lebar air base for observation... By then, my temperature had already subsided to normal.... Hence i was discharged and wonders of all wonders there was no transport for me back to changi.. I had to go back myself which was absolutely brainless..... Now i really wonder whether my sickness had subsided because of my body's own self healing powers or the help of the medics and drivers.... YAWNZZZ

Is this a miracle or what yesterday i went out with her again??!?!? Am I dreaming??? This must be too good to be true.... Not to get carried and go into dreamland, she was just accompanying me as a friend... So envious of her now that she is happy in love with Pak Wing (first time calling that B!@#%^D by his name but gotta get used to it somehow..) sometimes i just want to be in Pak Wing's shoes for a moment while they are together....... Sigh if only science was that advanced.... heheheh maybe i should come up with special potions like dat.....
I really love time spent with her especially when we talk or do anything together.... Its just so wonderful... The feeling is just great.... But I know i can't get too close or else I'll end up hurting the both of us.... Sigh... Enough about that... Just bought a brand new jigsaw puzzle... It pretty similar to the last one i did but the scenery is different... I'm so happy... Got the two favourite pictures now.... Must find somewhere nice to frame up though if not wat a waste man..... Really enjoying my leisure time now coz its kinda like my pace... When I'm free, I've got driving, tuition or exercise plans... At least I'm making good use of time spent heheh.... But sometimes when you come to a point where you don't wanna do anything but go out with ppl it gets really irritating especially if you can't find anyone hehehe..... Looking back at my jc and army days, I really wondered if i've matured and grown... It seems as though I have but when i look back at some events and the way i behaved it seems again I haven't.... Maybe I still haven't learnt to curb my hot-temper I guess.... Sigh... Well no point evaluating my year now when i still have half a year to go so heck it man.... Let's go all the way first....

Went out with her again today...She looked completely stunning to me... Though tanned but she was dressed simple but nice...Maybe that's wat I like about her I guess... We had dinner at Kenny Roger's by her definition which is not that ex but affordable... Had quite a good dinner talked about everything practically under the sun..... Then I saw my seniors(council) outside the restaurant. They were like giving me that I-know-who-you're-with look which made me a little worried.... Wondered how she felt afterall she was already attached to someone else... Luckily she wasn't with me when I went outside the restaurant...
Later we went for a walk she suggested watching a movie since I wanted to watch one and couldn't find a company.... But we headed to carrefour to buy a frame for her cross-stitch... We just shopped around and browsed stuff.... Exiting from carrefour we went upstairs to check out movie times.... Just before we could proceed to the cinema I spotted the latest driving game and pointed to it... She suggested we go and take a look and my itchy fingers decided to have a go at the machine... She seemed pretty ok and looked quite interested in it... This surprised me as I thought gals like her didn;'t like the arcade.... She was pretty engrossed in watching the game and was rooting me throughout the game... The feeling was great.... I realised I had to stop somewhere so I suggested checking out the cinema times.... We realised there wasn't any interesting shows that we could watch together so in the end. She suggested going back to the arcade which kinda surprised me... We went back and played all the musical games like rock fever and percussion freaks... She was pretty good at percussion freaks and I gotta hand it to her for playing so well the first time... We also played time crisis 3 which wasn't much of a liking for her... Then she asked me wat I wanted for my birthday but I really could think of anything I would have liked so I suggested a neo print which she thought I was joking.... We continued playing games and finally it was time to go home... I asked her once more abt the neo print and it dawned upon her that I was serious... I wondered if she wanted to do it or not coz I was being very bold at that time... She kinda agreed and I told her it was alright and we could do it another time... Inside my heart I had mixed feelings... I felt happy since she agreed but I was scared I was scaring her away... On the way back we shared a scoop of ice cream and talked all the way back to near her house...
It was a very eventful day to me and it felt as if it was a very very good date.... Inside my heart, I realized I was dreaming coz she was attached already and seemed happy with her boyfriend... Of course, I didn't want to be the third party or anything to jeopardize her well and happiness... A part of me still likes her.... What should I do?? Sigh a hedgehog's dilemma wouldn't you say.....

Its kinda amazing that you can talk to someone for so long and it feels as though you only talked to her for like half an hour??? Time really flies when you're having fun or enjoying yourself huh?? Its the first time since quite a while that we have talked for so long... Really made me feel kinda happy or rather energised... I guess we can consider us as good friends now... Hehehe... Its kinda amazing how this relationship has become but i guess i'll find someone eventually......
Sianzz so boredzzz.... Everyone around me in camp tells me i should go get a galfriend soon if not i'll drive them crazy with my antics... Hmm... feels kinda lonely sometimes especially when you have nothing to do... You can't always bug the same person if not you would be making a nuisance out of yourself. Sometimes i wonder what the hell am I doing watching a movie alone in the cinema... How i wished someone was with me to watch the movie especially when its like romantic movies i would feel kinda awkward at first coz the ppl surrounding me are couples and I'm like alone?!??! HaIzZz.... Getting a girlfriend isn't as easy as it seems to be.... If you're looking for true love, its not the sex you're looking for but someone to accompany and share with you your pain and happiness for the rest of your life... If you're looking for part-time girlfriend, its just the sex you're looking for.... The concept of true love is hard to define and sometimes your first love may not neccessarily be your true love.... If so there isn't a point in carrying on(with your first love), move on and find your one true love....
Wait what the hell am i writing??!?!?! Rampant scribblings of a bored and rubbish person.... In any case, should stop before I start to crap even more... Signing off....

The wonders of having working 8-5... being able to reach home and sleep and go back... HOW WONDERFUL is that hehehe... well there are good points and bad too lah but wat the heck heheheh... Its like being able to give tuition and do other things freely at your own will at nite... can't wait for my proper 8-5 to start... Stupid juniors have to fail bmt... GRrrr.....
Life's pretty ok so far just that i have to keep coming up with ways to siam things here and there.... Even in a small camp like mine, i'm pretty surprised that politics also play a major role in determining your life in camp... To join the slack forces or to please ppl and gain recognition which can it be??? Sigh elaborate if I have the time in the future... Lazy to write heheheheh ... ZzZZZZZzzz

Wow... Its been 13 days since my last entry..... Sigh... Sometimes i really wonder why no one bothers turning up for anything I organise... Why leh?? why why why??? Ok maybe my organisation skills isn't that good but well been asking ppl out twice, thrice... Poor response... Feel so sad... Then sometimes outings are cancelled at the last minute coz ppl have something popping up at the last minute... Am I really that unimportant?? Or maybe I chose the wrong click of friends to be with??? Its kinda embarrassing to organize something and in the end cancel it coz of poor response... Moreover, ppl who have agreed have set aside their time to go when they find out that its cancelled how they feel??? I know that feeling coz its happened to me before... But won't the blame be shifted onto me as the "organiser".... So what is it that people can't come for things i organise and they expect me to go for things they organise???? Is it fair... Maybe i'm being a little childish here but why do i always give and give and give in this world... Somehow i feel that I ain't important to anyone other than my family, to them i'm just a tool a device which can be made used of.... This will lead back to birthdays but let's not go into such detailed stuff.... Sigh...... Disappointed... Someone, save me can???

Yoz to the only person whom I think will bother to read this, I'm sorry about SUN.... Forgive me yah? Know that my organisation skills suck.... Will try not to let this happen again... Learnt my lesson liaozz.....

Oh dear, I'm gonna get charged.... Sigh stupid SAF... SUCKS.... One word of advice, if you do anything in the army don't get caught.... Sigh that's the super super duper golden rule... And life goes on....

Writing this entry a little late coz I'm too shacked last nite to write.... Met up with siswi yesterday for a long loong time i haven't seen her... She still looks the same but slightly fatter hehehe........ Ooooppsss sorry about that siswi!!! But it was really great to see her... She hasn't changed at all.... The same old siswi with the same old slang and same old habits heheheh...... You're the MAN man siswi!!!! Although I was late for one hour coz i overslep but she still didn't get angry heheheh...... You're the best shifu heheheh...... She's still so understanding and talkative... Really makes me feel back when I was in jc.....
Next I went with Kenny, Guo An, Carol and Jasmine last nite to HARD ROCK cafe to watch Kumar (the stand-up comedian who acts as a drag queen). Before hand someone had already told me I was gonna get sabotaged into going on stage.... I didn't mind that until that person told me that Kenny was doing just to make fun out of me.... I was kinda hurt and angry then.... Felt so pissed that he would do such a thing at the expense of me... Told siswi about it... Still I went even though i thought it was a trap coz i had agreed to go with them and I could not go back on my word....
At HARD ROCK cafe, we arrived slightly late and there was no seats left... We had to stand..... There was a band playing and the band was FANTASTIC... Should bring ppl there sometime soon.... Great place to hang out.... The singers were just so good!!! At 1035 the show started.... The show started off with the usual drag queens performing their lookalike impersonations.... They were really good! Then came along the main star KUMAR... He was really funny which made me laugh for half the entire time... His jokes were either lewd, funny or racist which was kinda amusing the first time you heard it.... Halfway through the show, Kumar asked for birthdays... Kenny shouted out mine name, which was kinda of an indication a sabotage.... Despite my reluctance to go up the stage, I had no choice did I? Kumar was already point at me.... He called up a couple, a married wife whose birthday was on that day and me on the stage. After making fun for everyone, he paired me up with the wife and then he hit the disco music... I was like WAT?!?!?!? How to dance with the married wife?? Somemore her husband was there... I was like wat the???!!! THen Kumar cut the music.... He praised the couple for their ranchy and sexy dance, then he turned to us and said," EHy harlow wat's the matter with you?" In the end, we had to do a forfeit which was to use our hips to write out the opposite sex's name... I made it a bit suggestive since it was meant to be that way... Then i was given a little token and i left the stage... Then Kumar shouted to me,"OOII harlow you stay right here!" I knew I was in for more... After making more fun of me and joking with me, he made me down four shots of alcohol at one go before turning on to techno music... I was like that's it I don't know how to dance,I'll make a bigger fool out of myself then i already did... So i just did a little William hung impersonation and some provocative sex humps followed by a tribal shake with Kumar.... Finally, I could get off the stage!!! Throughout my little presence on stage, I drew a lot of laughter at my own stupidity and funny stunts..... However it didn't feel so bad... The crowd was nice, they sang a birthday song at kumar's request and after the show some people even came up to congradulate me on my birthday even though it was already over hehehhehehe.... It felt kinda good.... After the show ended, I was kinda on a high.... Talking to my friends, I realised i was really very silly up on stage then but they consoled me on being a sport... In my conversation with Kenny, I realised his intentions were for me to have fun coz knowing my personality he kinda knew i wouldn't be offended.... I was kinda surprised he knew me so well and it really made me think.....
I was so guilty about thinking so lowly of him and it really made me regret it.... Morale of the super super long story: Never jump to conclusions or imagine to much... If not it only makes you think the worst. Afterall, its only human nature to think the worst of others.... So i guess its really a lesson learnt not to think badly of others ever again... So kenny if you're reading this... Sorry about that and thank you from the bottom of my heart for bringing me to watch KUMAR... It was really an unforgettable night... I had such a pleasant surprise..... My birthday kinda came true afterall!!! Yeah.... Hmmm........ Great man!!! Of course to all those who are reading... you still owe me PRESENTS!!!! *waves fist menacingly* Jokingzzz even if you forgot my birthday I realised something.... Even if you're close friends, it isn't neccessary for them to remember when your birthday is or even for them to wish you... All that matters if whether they will stand by your side in times of need.....

Hmmm... Today was kinda of a better day... Enjoyed myself a little today heheh... Although i lost a lot of money heheh still i feel happy.... Gotta elaborate on this... Brought my mother to the jackpot room to play... I lost 400, she lost 1000??? But I kinda felt better after that?? Weird i'm not sure why.... Maybe because my mother realised playing jackpot is a losing game??? At least she told me she was gonna stop playing lah... I guess will try to work hard in future for her to play jackpot hehehhe... That's if i can earn enough money lor.... heheheheh.....Hmm.. Losing money= feeling better??? Hmmm... I don't know heheh..... Well.... really gotta thank chun li xueling and kenny for the time spent during dinner... Really enjoyed myself today... Though there was no presents but i felt happy for a moment....
I've been so moody recently... Wonder why??? Is it because.?.?.?.? Ahh.... I don't know lah.... Its kinda up and down up and down.... Maybe its that time of the month for me man heheheheh....... Hopefully will get over... Sigh three days of civillian life is gonna end soon.... Dreadful camp life soon ARRRRGGGHHH..... Sianzzz.... Doggy life here i come....

The day just ended... Nothing special, normal dinner with family and went out alone that's all.... Boring bday..... *whine*whine* Was really looking forward to her sending me a msg but she didn't seemed to be going to send me anything.... WAited waited and waited..... 2301HRS, the msg came :
" Yoz!
One more hour to end of today!
Happy birthday ah.
Hope you'd a great day. "
Deep inside I wondered whether i should have replied.... In the end, I decided to reply..... I was waiting for the whole day for the msg... My heart felt funny... I felt funny... What to say??? How should i react??? Questions started spinning and i just decided to engage in a little chat.... Simple chat but it made me feel a little better... Today's Ken Min and his girlfriend's anniversary... Its their 4th year mind you.... So jealous of how lovey dovey they were... Kinda made me think abt myself... So lonely today.... So alone.... It kinda made me little depressed in a way.... Oh well, by then the day had ended.... It was just a normal day with a little dinner with family and meeting one or two friends.. That's all.... Oh well, next year i guess.... Hopefully hehehe... Was looking forward to something memorable to remember but looks like nothing special happened.... Kinda sad but oh well.... There's always next year and the year after and the nxt year after and the nxt nxt nxt nxt year after rite??? Don't know how to celebrate my 21st birthday anyway.... Let's not go too far shall we??? Life is nothing but a long journey.... I still can't see the light on the road....

Writing this blog a few hours before my birthday.... phoah.... kinda sianzz now.... Don't know wat to do... don't know wat to do.... DO DE DO DE DO DE DO......... Arrrrggghhhhh... Wanna spend time with my friends leh.... But most of them ain't free... Oh well, guess in the end I'll be spending time with people who don't even know its my birthdat again heehhehehe.... That's a pessimistic assumption again of course ehehehehehhe.... Whatever the case HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me.... And hopefully may my dreams come true?? EHEHHEHEHEhehehhe........

I really wonder wat to wish for my coming birthday.. Its kinda weird and fuzzy feeling... Really looking forward to it but i don't know wat to do then too... I mean most the council guys are either overseas or in camp (except for lester... Hmmm....) That leaves me with the gals.... The feeling would be kinda weird if i were to spend my birthday with a group of gals (no offence to any gal who sees this but yah...) Of course there is one particular gal i would have loved to spend my entire life together with... :-) But that's impossible.... Sighzz.... Looks like this year is gonna be another boring birthday with nothing special i guess....
I used to admire people who had birthday parties and I held one when i was small... Turned out to be nothing special.... Then i found out that i actually loved surprises... Its kinda nice to know that people go all the trouble to come up with a surprise gift or pop out of nowhere with a cake... Shows how much they really care and bother to come up with wacky ideas.... Surprise surprise.... hehheh.... I still can remember when i was in year one and on the day of my birthday i went out to eat at Swensens at Plaza Singapura it was one of the best birthday i ever had coz out of the blue I saw weining with qiuye carrying a slice of cake with a candle on it... I was so happy that day.... No. 1 It was the first time I had a birthday cake ever in my life that i can remember lah heheheh.. No. 2 It was such a sweet surprise (although i expected something funny already...) that I was just so elated... It was better than any present I received and yes i felt so warm and loved at that point of time.... Kinda makes me wonder wat's my ideal birthday... Maybe if someone could do something special just for me on that day for the first time in my life, it would be a very unforgettable birthday of my life... Even how belated it maybe, just the thought of my birthday and something special... hehehheheh.... Maybe now i'm really asking for the sky high coz i don't do it for other ppl.... Well... at least its a birthday wish heheheh... Hopefully it'll come true someday lah hehehehe.... Afterall, I've got a whole dozen more years to go... Bleahzz...... :-P
On the other hand, my first birthday wish was to get a girlfriend.... Someone who would love and give me warmth, someone who i could give love and warmth too other than my family... Its just impossible so I made the above wish heheheheheh..... Writing till here, I just realised how "gu niang" i am hehehheheheh... I need so much love and attention for what... Maybe that's how i am... I need love and attention.... Who doesn't rite??? heheh Sigh... Oh well....

Phew.... finally got back from camp..... What a tiresome mount this has been... Actually not quite heheh... got so many new birds soon i;ll be going to be working 8-5 heheh combat pay and stuff phew life is GOOD!!! Having new guys kinda makes me feel as though i'm a third sgt now... heheheh... Its like i can order them to do this and do that and they can't complain or say anything about it WAHHAHA.... Ok ok before anyone thinks i'm a sadistic person, I actually treat them nicer than any of the old birds ok... So don't think i'm a slave driver man... Actually looking at them really makes me ponder about how i lived my boring and meaningless life through NS......
First things first i guess my cheerful optimistic character pulled me through half my NS life while the other half was by self-entertainment and making a monkey of myself.... That was pretty much how it sums up now.... Good or bad i don't know.... *Frownzzz* Oh well, looking at my juniors i think i'm so much luckier now.... Its kinda weird to like "order" someone who is like the same age or even older than you to do something coz its just not right(the feeling i mean) then you XXXX them for not doing it well.... Maybe that's why my shift I/C isn't as welcomed in the shift lor coz he does it all the time.... okok shall leave my bitching about dog section to another journal if not this journal will have no end to it WAHAHHAAH.......
My birthday is COMING!!!!!! YEAH!!!! This is not a reminder to all teehehehehe..... Afterall how many ppl will get to read this sigh heheheh...... As you grow older, you realise that birthdays are important anymore.... Memories are.... How nice would it be to have a nice memorable birthday with someone or with anyone in that case.... It would be worth a life time to remember such nice thoughts..... Oh well see how it goes.... Early happy birthday to myself then eheheh!!!

Waaaaahhhhhh.......... I didn't know driving could have been so difficult... the coordination of the gears and acceleration pedal and clutch.... ARRRGGHHHHH this shows how disastrous my first lesson went... Everytime i step the accelerator the car goes VVVRRRRRROOOOOMMMM... Wah liaozzz so stressful.... Sigh... hopefully i can do better next week i hope.... sigh... Wonder how everyone is now leh.... Just received a msg from qiuye sending his regards..... Wonder how xianna siswi and huiyuan all are doing.... Sigh kinda miss these ppl and envy them coz they are overseas.... It makes me wanna join them overseas and go abroad to study....... Hmmm.... too bad i've no money.... oh well.... maybe when i earn enough money then i'll go overseas myself lah ehhehehe....

Since I told someone i was actually gonna write for every three days ahahaha....... so this is just a boliaozz entry to fulfill what i have said teheheheh........ actually was gonna write longer and about other things but my momma says we're gonna go out and eat so heck it lah!!! Wait till i come back then say wahahahahah tatazzz.....

Wow.... One thing i realise is that backdating one whole bunch of blogging is totally strenous and makes you feel as if you don't wanna continue heheh...... Shall talk about the funfair..... The funfair was great really had a hell of a time there.... There was so much things to do... There was rock climbing, flying foxes, ps2 games, dart games, hockey games and lots and lots of GREAT FOOD!! I practically tried everything and anything ALONE.... Which was kinda of the minus point, how i wished i had someone to accompany me..... Sigh... Well... she was here with her mei mei then left for suntec........ Oh well, had tremendous time by myself until weining and louis came along.... Lost to weining in wrestling and kicked his ass in soccer ahahahah........ Reminds me of the time when we would always go to his house and play ps2 games... So fun!!!!

The highlight of the day definitely had to be the bbq..... By the time, I arrived the bbq had already started!!! HMPH!! How can start without me leh hehehe....... The bbq really reminded me of in the past when the council had bbqs..... Hari and kenny was always the satay or rather the bbq man while the rest of us just relax one corner and catch up on the latest gossips and in things.... Of course there was always the forfeit games which weining and xianna always took and still takes a liking to lor....... Lester and wing lost this time and had to suck ice cubes in their mouth..... Arrhh..... freezing man heheheh......... The bbq was very fun with lots of ppl we didn't know joining in like the current bball ppl and soccer ppl...... Basically we were just cooking and the ppl we didn't know came by and stole our food wahahhahah..... It was kinda funny and interesting though...... At nite, we did the usual visiting of heaven.... It was a nostalgic feeling when we stayed over and climbed the roof.... Brought back memories...

On the whole i really enjoyed myself that day though I ended up so tired.......

Heyozzz... writing this on a sat.... Guess wat its FUNFAIR DAY!!!! Been waiting so long for this day to come.... Finally the ROCK HAS COME BACK TO V.... J.....C!!!!! Wahahahah.... Okayzz.... Shan't crap too much already must go prepare...... Bleahzz.....

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