Shit! I forgot to study for my theory exam damn it siaozzz liaozz...... How how?!??! Screw it lah afterall its the second time i've done it wahahahahha..... Besides that, went out to see weiyi's comissioning parade..... Though the drills were f up but i gotta to admit that I was full of envy for the officers or rather officers-to-be..... Everyone didn't care abt whether the drills were f up, they were more concern which one is my son, which one is my friend?!?!? I was so envious becoz i could never take part in such a comissioning parade and was wondering if anyone would do the same for me if i ever did something like a concert or probably a competition....
Writing till here, I realised that all my life I just wanted friends who would cheer me on and spur me on..... During my bowling or any other tournaments, it would just be me and me only..... I was always envious of the other competitors who had people to cheer them or support them on.... It always kinda felt that I was the lone ranger..... So lonely..... Maybe that's why I'm such a desperate person now.... Coz i never felt the encouragement from anyone but myself..... Even when i'm on a journey to losing weight, no one ever gives me words of encouragement. Instead its just ahahahah you serious abt losing weight arh?!?! I understand its jokes sometimes but can't there be just a single word of encouragement like hey you're doing good keep it up?!?! Its abt time someone did it for me instead of me doing it for myself.... Coz I'm tired and sick of telling myself to push myself to limits, telling myself i can do it....... wahahhaha its a little demanding and selfish of me oh well.............