Monday, March 20, 2006

I feel lousy... I feel stupid and I feel bad....... I don't know why did I go at 100 in a traffic junction when the light was yelow... Stupid cow.... Then why was it when i came back five min or ten min later there was a traffic police at the same traffic light junction?? Will i go to jial??? Sigh stupid things i do... This is getting very random from me but i just feel kinda lousy now.... In fact, I feel VERY lousy now....
Why do I suck at chasing gals?? When i try to talk to the gal I like, getting to know her better, everything just misfires and shoots back at me... Now I have no idea how many gals think i'm weird.... Sigh.... I just get so tongue tied and I can't think of anything to talk about... Let's admit it, I suck when it comes to chasing gals... Boo.....
All hell breaks loose.... I'm abt to throw in the white tower.......

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Everything just seems so bleak..... Why are there bad people on this earth?? Why do they do bad things to other people?? Where is justice?? Where is love?? How I wish this world was pure, full of love and compassion for one another instead of an endless cycle of vengeance, jealousy and selfishness....
So many or rather just one thing has happened and this has caused my world to spin 360 degrees.... Why commit adultery when you are married with someone who loves you so much?? To my bro-i-l, wake up from your senses please.... Turn back before everything gets out of hand... And to the other party I hope you know what you have done is evil, immoral and disgusting... Perhaps that there is black magic is involved, perhaps there isn't but i sincerely wish you would stop this immoral act of yours. You reap what you sow, remember that... I know I will....
In a recent spate of events, it has caused me to change my perception of this world.... I detest mankind.... What we have all become... What we have all turned into... Monsters all monsters.... Is there someone up there who can give me answers?? Life seems too short and fragile now..... Is there hope?? Someone please light this darkened path for me.... For I've grown weary of this world, depression has taken me and stripped me of my existence. Life goes on......