Hmmm... Today was kinda of a better day... Enjoyed myself a little today heheh... Although i lost a lot of money heheh still i feel happy.... Gotta elaborate on this... Brought my mother to the jackpot room to play... I lost 400, she lost 1000??? But I kinda felt better after that?? Weird i'm not sure why.... Maybe because my mother realised playing jackpot is a losing game??? At least she told me she was gonna stop playing lah... I guess will try to work hard in future for her to play jackpot hehehhe... That's if i can earn enough money lor.... heheheheh.....Hmm.. Losing money= feeling better??? Hmmm... I don't know heheh..... Well.... really gotta thank chun li xueling and kenny for the time spent during dinner... Really enjoyed myself today... Though there was no presents but i felt happy for a moment....
I've been so moody recently... Wonder why??? Is it because.?.?.?.? Ahh.... I don't know lah.... Its kinda up and down up and down.... Maybe its that time of the month for me man heheheheh....... Hopefully will get over... Sigh three days of civillian life is gonna end soon.... Dreadful camp life soon ARRRRGGGHHH..... Sianzzz.... Doggy life here i come....

The day just ended... Nothing special, normal dinner with family and went out alone that's all.... Boring bday..... *whine*whine* Was really looking forward to her sending me a msg but she didn't seemed to be going to send me anything.... WAited waited and waited..... 2301HRS, the msg came :
" Yoz!
One more hour to end of today!
Happy birthday ah.
Hope you'd a great day. "
Deep inside I wondered whether i should have replied.... In the end, I decided to reply..... I was waiting for the whole day for the msg... My heart felt funny... I felt funny... What to say??? How should i react??? Questions started spinning and i just decided to engage in a little chat.... Simple chat but it made me feel a little better... Today's Ken Min and his girlfriend's anniversary... Its their 4th year mind you.... So jealous of how lovey dovey they were... Kinda made me think abt myself... So lonely today.... So alone.... It kinda made me little depressed in a way.... Oh well, by then the day had ended.... It was just a normal day with a little dinner with family and meeting one or two friends.. That's all.... Oh well, next year i guess.... Hopefully hehehe... Was looking forward to something memorable to remember but looks like nothing special happened.... Kinda sad but oh well.... There's always next year and the year after and the nxt year after and the nxt nxt nxt nxt year after rite??? Don't know how to celebrate my 21st birthday anyway.... Let's not go too far shall we??? Life is nothing but a long journey.... I still can't see the light on the road....

Writing this blog a few hours before my birthday.... phoah.... kinda sianzz now.... Don't know wat to do... don't know wat to do.... DO DE DO DE DO DE DO......... Arrrrggghhhhh... Wanna spend time with my friends leh.... But most of them ain't free... Oh well, guess in the end I'll be spending time with people who don't even know its my birthdat again heehhehehe.... That's a pessimistic assumption again of course ehehehehehhe.... Whatever the case HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me.... And hopefully may my dreams come true?? EHEHHEHEHEhehehhe........

I really wonder wat to wish for my coming birthday.. Its kinda weird and fuzzy feeling... Really looking forward to it but i don't know wat to do then too... I mean most the council guys are either overseas or in camp (except for lester... Hmmm....) That leaves me with the gals.... The feeling would be kinda weird if i were to spend my birthday with a group of gals (no offence to any gal who sees this but yah...) Of course there is one particular gal i would have loved to spend my entire life together with... :-) But that's impossible.... Sighzz.... Looks like this year is gonna be another boring birthday with nothing special i guess....
I used to admire people who had birthday parties and I held one when i was small... Turned out to be nothing special.... Then i found out that i actually loved surprises... Its kinda nice to know that people go all the trouble to come up with a surprise gift or pop out of nowhere with a cake... Shows how much they really care and bother to come up with wacky ideas.... Surprise surprise.... hehheh.... I still can remember when i was in year one and on the day of my birthday i went out to eat at Swensens at Plaza Singapura it was one of the best birthday i ever had coz out of the blue I saw weining with qiuye carrying a slice of cake with a candle on it... I was so happy that day.... No. 1 It was the first time I had a birthday cake ever in my life that i can remember lah heheheh.. No. 2 It was such a sweet surprise (although i expected something funny already...) that I was just so elated... It was better than any present I received and yes i felt so warm and loved at that point of time.... Kinda makes me wonder wat's my ideal birthday... Maybe if someone could do something special just for me on that day for the first time in my life, it would be a very unforgettable birthday of my life... Even how belated it maybe, just the thought of my birthday and something special... hehehheheh.... Maybe now i'm really asking for the sky high coz i don't do it for other ppl.... Well... at least its a birthday wish heheheh... Hopefully it'll come true someday lah hehehehe.... Afterall, I've got a whole dozen more years to go... Bleahzz...... :-P
On the other hand, my first birthday wish was to get a girlfriend.... Someone who would love and give me warmth, someone who i could give love and warmth too other than my family... Its just impossible so I made the above wish heheheheheh..... Writing till here, I just realised how "gu niang" i am hehehheheheh... I need so much love and attention for what... Maybe that's how i am... I need love and attention.... Who doesn't rite??? heheh Sigh... Oh well....

Phew.... finally got back from camp..... What a tiresome mount this has been... Actually not quite heheh... got so many new birds soon i;ll be going to be working 8-5 heheh combat pay and stuff phew life is GOOD!!! Having new guys kinda makes me feel as though i'm a third sgt now... heheheh... Its like i can order them to do this and do that and they can't complain or say anything about it WAHHAHA.... Ok ok before anyone thinks i'm a sadistic person, I actually treat them nicer than any of the old birds ok... So don't think i'm a slave driver man... Actually looking at them really makes me ponder about how i lived my boring and meaningless life through NS......
First things first i guess my cheerful optimistic character pulled me through half my NS life while the other half was by self-entertainment and making a monkey of myself.... That was pretty much how it sums up now.... Good or bad i don't know.... *Frownzzz* Oh well, looking at my juniors i think i'm so much luckier now.... Its kinda weird to like "order" someone who is like the same age or even older than you to do something coz its just not right(the feeling i mean) then you XXXX them for not doing it well.... Maybe that's why my shift I/C isn't as welcomed in the shift lor coz he does it all the time.... okok shall leave my bitching about dog section to another journal if not this journal will have no end to it WAHAHHAAH.......
My birthday is COMING!!!!!! YEAH!!!! This is not a reminder to all teehehehehe..... Afterall how many ppl will get to read this sigh heheheh...... As you grow older, you realise that birthdays are important anymore.... Memories are.... How nice would it be to have a nice memorable birthday with someone or with anyone in that case.... It would be worth a life time to remember such nice thoughts..... Oh well see how it goes.... Early happy birthday to myself then eheheh!!!

Waaaaahhhhhh.......... I didn't know driving could have been so difficult... the coordination of the gears and acceleration pedal and clutch.... ARRRGGHHHHH this shows how disastrous my first lesson went... Everytime i step the accelerator the car goes VVVRRRRRROOOOOMMMM... Wah liaozzz so stressful.... Sigh... hopefully i can do better next week i hope.... sigh... Wonder how everyone is now leh.... Just received a msg from qiuye sending his regards..... Wonder how xianna siswi and huiyuan all are doing.... Sigh kinda miss these ppl and envy them coz they are overseas.... It makes me wanna join them overseas and go abroad to study....... Hmmm.... too bad i've no money.... oh well.... maybe when i earn enough money then i'll go overseas myself lah ehhehehe....

Since I told someone i was actually gonna write for every three days ahahaha....... so this is just a boliaozz entry to fulfill what i have said teheheheh........ actually was gonna write longer and about other things but my momma says we're gonna go out and eat so heck it lah!!! Wait till i come back then say wahahahahah tatazzz.....

Wow.... One thing i realise is that backdating one whole bunch of blogging is totally strenous and makes you feel as if you don't wanna continue heheh...... Shall talk about the funfair..... The funfair was great really had a hell of a time there.... There was so much things to do... There was rock climbing, flying foxes, ps2 games, dart games, hockey games and lots and lots of GREAT FOOD!! I practically tried everything and anything ALONE.... Which was kinda of the minus point, how i wished i had someone to accompany me..... Sigh... Well... she was here with her mei mei then left for suntec........ Oh well, had tremendous time by myself until weining and louis came along.... Lost to weining in wrestling and kicked his ass in soccer ahahahah........ Reminds me of the time when we would always go to his house and play ps2 games... So fun!!!!

The highlight of the day definitely had to be the bbq..... By the time, I arrived the bbq had already started!!! HMPH!! How can start without me leh hehehe....... The bbq really reminded me of in the past when the council had bbqs..... Hari and kenny was always the satay or rather the bbq man while the rest of us just relax one corner and catch up on the latest gossips and in things.... Of course there was always the forfeit games which weining and xianna always took and still takes a liking to lor....... Lester and wing lost this time and had to suck ice cubes in their mouth..... Arrhh..... freezing man heheheh......... The bbq was very fun with lots of ppl we didn't know joining in like the current bball ppl and soccer ppl...... Basically we were just cooking and the ppl we didn't know came by and stole our food wahahhahah..... It was kinda funny and interesting though...... At nite, we did the usual visiting of heaven.... It was a nostalgic feeling when we stayed over and climbed the roof.... Brought back memories...

On the whole i really enjoyed myself that day though I ended up so tired.......

Heyozzz... writing this on a sat.... Guess wat its FUNFAIR DAY!!!! Been waiting so long for this day to come.... Finally the ROCK HAS COME BACK TO V.... J.....C!!!!! Wahahahah.... Okayzz.... Shan't crap too much already must go prepare...... Bleahzz.....

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