"If we see something not right, we can advise them if u truly think it's not good... but do so in the capacity of a friend and not a judge." A wise man once said. He also said,
"We try our best to be as good as we can... But we cannot succeed on our own... The worst is to think we have succeeded, that we are great and holy and decent when we actually are not..."

Thats whats friends are for. To give you the wake up call when you're in disillusion and when you're in the wrong. Remember that. Remember that....

I'm disillusioned about how some people are in my life. No morals or whatsoever. Someone just knock me dead please......

This trip to Europe really has been an eye opener for me. From the stupid mistakes that I make with my life to the invaluable lessons I have learned here. Yet so much has happened that I really have to rethink about the things in my life and how it should be from now on.
First and foremost, to be a responsible person and care about the important things in life. My family and my true friends. I realised that I've neglect certain aspects of my family and i really miss them over here. Its like i've received enlightenment about family being closest to your heart. I really love them so much and they are so important to me. I should really be more responsible and show more love and care towards my family members more from now on. Of course alongside my family, studies become a very important part of my priorities as I really want to study hard and work hard to give my parents a comfortable life.
True friends. Well those that really have stood through thick and thin with me. Councilors and some very close SMU people and a friend from Bath. I'm sure i don't have to mention who it is but as long as i know who they are its alright. Coz these friends have already accepted who I am and really appreciate me as a friend. I should really be thankful for these friends and start to appreciate them even further. Be there for them when they are down and listen to them like what true friends do.
Last but not the least, lead an honest and upright life with nothing to be ashamed about. Not doing anything that disgraces myself or my family and doing the things i feel are right. In that way, even if I die i would have nothing to hide. No lies. But having said that, I realise the need to be as sociable but as observant and equal to everyone. Even normal friends. What do I mean. Well, just draw the thin line and observe people instead of running my mouth non stop and talking nonsense with people. That really is a skill I must pick up which i feel is important to survive in this world. Having said so much, its nothing with talk and no action. Hopefully when i get back, you guys reading this would have seen a slight change in me for the better. To the better things in my life worth looking out for.

Don't know what i'm doing but i think its time for me to rethink over somethings. I'm gonna rethink over what my goal in life and whats important in life....

I don't know why but i just hate dinner or social sessions with some people over here. Maybe i really don't like socialising... Or i have the wrong intentions for socialising? Feels kinda weird though ain' it? For me to be speaking about something like this. A social holic like me saying i hate socialising... That doesn't sound very right i guess.... Oh well.,.. I'm thinking about things again the same thing that stupid mistake.... I don't know.

One mistake will remember for the rest of my life... An life long lesson i will never forget..... If only I wasn't so stupid at that point of time.... Yet life goes on but in a different perspective. This trip has been really i feel one of the most life changing trip for me. Having to learn how to tolerate people whom I don't know well to travel, learning how to take care of myself and learning certain things the hard way. It really has been hard for me especially the most stupid thing i've ever done in my life was unfolded last night. I swear nvr again this will happen to me and I will change to be more responsible and more mature. Let this entry be a proof and a reminder to myself whenever I forget...