You must always take two steps backwards before you can take three steps forward. Honestly, I'm feeling both sad and happy at the same time with the way things are going. Lots of things have been just zooming by in an instant that I've barely got time to breathe. I guess the main reason why I'm feelin sad, why tears well up in my eyes today is unexplainable. First, your eyes grow strained as you think more abt it your vision starts to blur and your nose starts to water. Yet when I think about how the way things used be and the way things are and will be I feel very heartened that things might turn out for the better. We emerge stronger and unfurl another chapter of our lives. It really is a bitter sweet feeling which is still lingering in my mouth something i find very hard to swallow yet you know you have to swallow it. I guess what better way than to think about the positive future we have ahead. 

I guess thats what being human is all about. The emotions and the rationality all into one. The learning process of how to live, how to be someone. I guess we only learn how to walk after learning how to fall. The road maybe tough but i want to persevere on. Looking back at things, I guess I would do the same thing all over again. Would you?

02/02/2009. An important date to remember. 

Whatever it is, I'll try to make things work. I'll give it my all. Its the impt things to me that matters. This way life has always been my way of life and it will continue to be. Treasure something thats important to you with the mentality that u never know what's gonna happen tomorrow. Only then life is without any regrets. Its the short lifespan of man that makes everything so beautiful.

I'm sitting here wondering what i can do to make things better. I'm praying that every thing's alright... If only i could bite all the bullets for you, but i can't. I try to please everyone. Be the good brother/son that i can become. Be the good friend that i hope to be. Be the good caring guy for you. It hard but I'm trying my best. If thats not good enough, I'll give the best of my best.