Sigh.... Feel so shitty nowadays... It all started when my campmate got angry with me for god knows wat reasons.... The only thing i could guess was that I my attitude must have been so heck care towards going to the Jeff Chang concert that he decided to go without me.... sigh....... Then that's where the whole trouble started.... I don't really enjoy the company of my campmates sometimes but nothing can be helped abt that.... Its all so political and irritating to just try and manouever your way thru NS without touching politics at all.... SUcky... Then comes along the little funny thing called LUUV which always never fails to make me jealous or shitty... Wahahha somehow or rather i must have gotten used to this kind of life ever since I was out of LUUV....

Was at intra yesterday. Somehow or rather i was already feeling shitty before the event.... Sprained my leg in soccer which was totally sianzzz..... Afterall it was my fault. Who called me to be so trigger happy sliding everywhere.... In the end, went in the wrong way and heard a crack when i went in..... SUCKS.... Met so many ppl in intra whom i haven't seen in donkey jabroni years..... It kinda felt like a big reunion but i just didn't felt as if I belonged in the group.... Keep wanting to talk to people but couldn't coz everytime i talked was interrupted.... Moreover, I don't talk so much in a group rather prefer in small groups or one on one..... Don't know why.... I just felt so hollow and invisible that nite rather than catching up with old times... Perhaps I'm just not in conversing that's all.... Don't we all feel the same muahahhaha.... One thing for sure I'm pretty happy or rather comforted to see a Ma and a Hoe together seeems as though they finally made up or something.... Afterall i don't really know the details but wish the best for them....

Sigh..... I'm so lonely and intra perhaps made me even more lonely..... Seeing everyone and feeling so distant... Kinda feels like i'm living in antartica.... Wahahah gu dan bei ban qiu.....