I've been doing lots of thinking and many things have been floating around in my head.

What do I view that is important in life:

1. Values and principles: In my life my guiding principle has always been very simple, the golden rule - Treat others the way you want others to treat you. Try to respect and understand everyone around you.
2. Family: Family for obvious reasons. Because complain as much as you want, you are blood related. There's nothing more reassuring than to have a family that stands by you no matter what you do.
3. Friends: People who you have been through thick and thin over the years. People who though not blood-related accept you for who you are and give you smacks on the head for being foolhardy and being an idiot.

What are my personal goals:

1. Pursuit of happiness: For everyone around me to be happy, including myself. Be it monetary (not excessive but enough for my family), physical or emotionally.
2. Fulfilling life : Experiences and to understand people from different walks of life. By traveling, kendo, reading up or meeting people from different walks of life.

What kind of woman am I looking out for:

1. Shares the same values and ideas that I do.
2. Someone who is able to be the cushion when I'm down but smack me in the head when I'm too down.

Things are still fuzzy. But I'll be updating this from time to time as things become clearer to me.

You say I'm the closest one out of the three. Seeing is believing, and what I saw doesn't make me believe a single word you said. Lies upon lies? Do you really mean about anything you say?

Like a child who gets caught red-handed stealing from the cookie jar, you did it thrice to me. You took a dagger and stabbed me straight in the heart, ripped it out for everyone to see and sliced it.

Why didn't you wanna talk to me anything about it? Why make useless attempts to cover what happened with more lies?

Even though I still want to be your friend, you don't seem as though you want to. You said," Thank you for the fishes." So is this the end of our friendship even? If you really wanted to salvage anything, i think you know what to do. But sometimes pride blinds our eyes to see things clearly.