Amazingly re-reading what i wrote, it really doesn't seem like its me..... Hahaha.... kinda feel like laughing at myself for being so magnanimous.... hmm... is that the correct word to use don't know lah...... Sigh.... wat a turmoil of feelings inside of me... how??? Its kinda weird.... Why haven't i stopped liking her??? Becoz I still think i have a chance??? Becoz I'm a chi qing??? Its so hard to make myself stop and move on.... Allan if you're reading this i know how you feel and i'm glad you finally learnt to move on... As for me i'm stuck in a vicious cycle.....

Rejection ---- > Suffering ---- > Denial ---- > Sadness ---- > Acceptance then we go back to square one... It was something like that..... Chun Li once told me... Well life's like dat doesn't it??? There's ups and downs... I wonder will i ever fall in love with someone else again?? Or will i even get married ahahahah.... can't imagine my folks to pester me to get a galfriend.... Think I can't make it anyway.... Sigh..... Life goes on........

I'm really curious of something.... Is it possible for a gal who is so feminine to actually wanna try something like cs, warcraft... Something rather know as a guy's piece of heaven??? Hmm... maybe she's really bored.... Sigh but that makes me like her even more... For i see her cuteness and vulnerablity.... All these feelings i have which i hide inside... Sighzzz...... Knowing the fact that her heart belongs to someone else reminds me that I should not bring her any troubles or sorrow by expressing my feelings... I should be just friends with her.... I should wish the best for her..... And that's what i've been trying to do and what I will do.... As long as you're happy than I have nothing to wish for.... Your smile and laughter just melts my heart away.... Be happy Lilin! :-).... Follow your heart... If she so happens to find this, well then it may just be fate.... May you be happy always.....

Life is never the way you want it to be but the way you work for it to be....

LAH LAH LAH LAH LAH........ I'm on CLOUD NINE!!!! larlarlarlar........... So happy so good... somethings are kept a secret but if you really wanna know i just feel good.... heheh..... Hmmm..... Maybe i'm just crazy teeheheehhe...... ok ok its great to hang out with a friend sometimes... ~Fin~

Its kinda amazing what tuition does to you.... Perhaps i'm even smarter then b4... I realised that i could solve some questions i could never have solved when i was my tutee's age.... interesting leh.. or maybe becoz i learnt more about maths hehehe.. ok well.... finally motivated to write i guess or its just something to kill time while waiting for her to reply.... it just seems i wait for eternity to see her online leh... But talking to her makes me feel so happy.... I just get so high sometimes... wonder why??? Hmm.. that's another story for another time lah... What the heck....
Hmm... its really been quite a while since i had tuition just got most of my first pay heheh... so much money... must really make it a point to have this good habit of saving.. teehhehee.... Oh yes where was i?? digress again so pathetic... Hmm.. yes yes... tuition.... its really made my life hectic and EVEN MORE HECTIC.... how busy can my life get??? My weekends are completely burnt..... No life man.... Maybe should start picking up on driving man.. each week one or two lessons.... hmmm... till now i'm still clueless to enrol in which one?? private or school??? choices choices..... sigh.... hmm.... think will end here... later then heheheh