I'm so pissed that my previous post got erased... Well back to the start of my previous entry, and its been half an hour since I started on this entry. Talk about anger management man.... Gah! Well as i was saying There are two things on my mind, make that three since i can't get this show out of my head:

1. Religon
2. Life's Principles
3. One Litre of Tears

Well, I attended a church service yesterday to City Harvest Church which is more of a charismatic church. My first impression of it really is the fact that it is a charismatic one. Ok though it sounds dumb but yes due to the emphasis on the "showmanship" Afterall, they focus more on singing phrases about God and giving lots of thanks to god. But this new experience has got be thinking, isn't it all the same. What makes Christanity so different from the other religions? Everyone gives thanks to their God, their teachings are more or less similar to follow the right path and not to do evil deeds like killing, stealing etc - the social problems. From a marketing perpective of things it really does seem that people long ago wanted to create loyalty to each religion so they sang praises for people to remember and pass it on forever. Yet, I truly believe the essence of a religion is its teachings and not the praising and singing. Indeed for such a shallow person like me trying to sound profound comes as a surprise to some of you but haven't you sat down and thought about why you go to Sunday school? Why you go to temples to pray? Indeed though your heart follows, do you know why? You may give some profound reason to me or anyone else but one thing is for sure, its your heart that you have to convince after all religion is a personal conviction not anyone else's. Indeed, it is important to keep yourself focused and not lose yourself in the heat of friends, family and other factors but yourself. I never had the chance to do so coming from a Buddhist family yet i realised the need to respect every religion for its teachings and the scarifices the buddha, christ and all other religious leaders have made. Forgive me for my rude use of my language for I'm just a lowly commner. At the end of the day it is important to find yourself a root or set of principles that you can abide by.

I'm hitting the hour mark as I begin on the second thing that's on my mind now. All my short life existence this far has been revolved around one philosophy which is treat others the way you want them to treat you. The golden rule. Yet how many times have I gotten hurt at the end when I feel it is for the greater good? Indeed, such an idea would only be good in a ideal world but yet I still feel unchanged by this philosophy in life as I think life's worthwhile and without regret only when you know you've dig in deep and lead life the way you want it to be without harming others. However recently due to the massive influence of the j dramas and experiencial learning in religion I feel that life isn't just about one's self but how one affects the other people around him. I realised another important aspect of self fulfilment would be to enrich the lives of other people. Indeed, saying this is a big statement which i myself haven't gotten through yet. But indeed its not about self anymore but also about the people around me whom i know and not know. To be more compassionate to the people around you and to treat everyone as equals i guess. Isn't that what life is about?

Lastly would be this drama serial I've been watching. Been watching till the fourth episode and its really very good its called - One Litre of Tears. An adapted true life story about a girl who contracts spinocerebellar atrophy a horrible disease that destorys the mechanical and physical nervous system as time progress through the atrophy of the cellubrum and the spinal cord. Yet the girl who is just fifteen faces the adversity with courage and lives her life to the fullest till the very. Indeed the show does tug many strings in my heart but yet so many lessons can be learnt which has changed certain perceptions in my life.

Afterall life is about living, live it!