Lessons Learnt:

No. 1 - Never trust your "friends", ppl whom you have made scarifices for over the past year. Unless they can really be trusted. If not, you'll just be stabbed in the back. And when they come to you and apologise you know they're just hypocrites....

No. 2 - Ren bu wei ji tian zu di mie. Every man for himself, there's no friends in the fight to survive.

And yet somehow these two lessons i know won't be learnt.... Sometimes I wonder why am i so guilible? To go all out to these mother fuckers who don't give a shit abt your feelings at the end. Ppl whom you've worked with over the year, people whom you've made certain sacrifices for. Yet they just cast you away like a used newpaper... Have I not done enough for the fraternity to prove my worth? Tears did drop down my face when i thought through it. I know whats done cannot be undone but I just have to go out holding my head high.... But it hurts me so much.... To be stabbed so painfully in the heart by the people whom some i really considered "friends". Ppl whom u call friends..... I scorn at that word. I loathe that word. Ppl who i thought would do something for me.. My foot they would do anything. They just see benefits they can reap from u and discard u away.

No matter how hard i try to spit the venom out, it has gone too far in to be cast away.