My life:
Its really sucky to feel alone all the time. Ever since from young I was always the outcast, the extra one. Little did that change when i entered primary school. My classmates always bullied me and picked on me. Even when I tried my best at everything, it just seemed that it was enough for them. Could clearly remember once when somebody place another students bag in the toilet. In the end, I was to take the blame and endure the humuliation of being framed. Not to mention 10 strokes of the cane on my hand. To think that the situation would change with a transfer of primary school was a mistake. In fact, since i was the new student, they would always pick on me, taunt at me and make fun of me. I had always liked to say the word "shit" which my teacher thought it was a bad word. So she forbid me from saying it by punishing me to write lines. In the end, I had to replace "shit" with "sharks". That was of no use as my classmate practically "sabohed" me and telling the teacher I said shit. As a result, I had to write one thousand lines of " I will not say the word shit in class". It just felt so lonesome with no one to hang out with often.
Secondary school was worst, I grew more naive and fiery-tempered. Gone were the days where I used to keep my temper and cool. Instead, my fists spoke with rage and fury. I kinda decided to be more defensive over myself and ended up with fights here and there. Journeys to school and back were tiring, and studies was no better. Thankfully, I had a good friend whom accompanied me till sec 2. That was when we lost contact as each of us went our different ways. Sec 3 and 4 was pretty horrifying. It gave me a prelude to wat its was to be like in the real world. Everyone was so competitive and they always gave lies and whined non-stop about tests. In the end, I was the one with the lousy grades and they were the ones with the good ones. IT kinda sucked. Projects were always done by me alone even in group projects. Which never taught me anything but sharpened my presentation skills.
Maybe it was because of this childhood of mine which made me the way I am. My character, my temper, my attitude. As a result, I became a lone ranger. Used to being alone in everything. I was the only one who transferred into a new primary school with no friends at all. I was the only one from my primary school that went to Chinese High. I was the only one from my class that went from Chinese High to VJC. And I was the only one who entered Dog unit. Its a simple story wherever I went I had to make new friends and adapt in a new environment always. It never stopped. Life and people kept changing and changing which made me feel so helpless and lonesome sometimes. I mean at least other people had friends from their primary school and secondary school who entered the same school with them. I only had accuqaintances. Maybe that's why I want my journey of lonesome to come to an end so much. Hey life still goes on..... Life is like a boat out at sea........