I really wonder wat to wish for my coming birthday.. Its kinda weird and fuzzy feeling... Really looking forward to it but i don't know wat to do then too... I mean most the council guys are either overseas or in camp (except for lester... Hmmm....) That leaves me with the gals.... The feeling would be kinda weird if i were to spend my birthday with a group of gals (no offence to any gal who sees this but yah...) Of course there is one particular gal i would have loved to spend my entire life together with... :-) But that's impossible.... Sighzz.... Looks like this year is gonna be another boring birthday with nothing special i guess....
I used to admire people who had birthday parties and I held one when i was small... Turned out to be nothing special.... Then i found out that i actually loved surprises... Its kinda nice to know that people go all the trouble to come up with a surprise gift or pop out of nowhere with a cake... Shows how much they really care and bother to come up with wacky ideas.... Surprise surprise.... hehheh.... I still can remember when i was in year one and on the day of my birthday i went out to eat at Swensens at Plaza Singapura it was one of the best birthday i ever had coz out of the blue I saw weining with qiuye carrying a slice of cake with a candle on it... I was so happy that day.... No. 1 It was the first time I had a birthday cake ever in my life that i can remember lah heheheh.. No. 2 It was such a sweet surprise (although i expected something funny already...) that I was just so elated... It was better than any present I received and yes i felt so warm and loved at that point of time.... Kinda makes me wonder wat's my ideal birthday... Maybe if someone could do something special just for me on that day for the first time in my life, it would be a very unforgettable birthday of my life... Even how belated it maybe, just the thought of my birthday and something special... hehehheheh.... Maybe now i'm really asking for the sky high coz i don't do it for other ppl.... Well... at least its a birthday wish heheheh... Hopefully it'll come true someday lah hehehehe.... Afterall, I've got a whole dozen more years to go... Bleahzz...... :-P
On the other hand, my first birthday wish was to get a girlfriend.... Someone who would love and give me warmth, someone who i could give love and warmth too other than my family... Its just impossible so I made the above wish heheheheheh..... Writing till here, I just realised how "gu niang" i am hehehheheheh... I need so much love and attention for what... Maybe that's how i am... I need love and attention.... Who doesn't rite??? heheh Sigh... Oh well....